The purchase of Evelina’s clock
had been a more important event in the life of Ann
Eliza Bunner than her younger sister could divine.
In the first place, there had been the demoralizing
satisfaction of finding herself in possession of a
sum of money which she need not put into the common
fund, but could spend as she chose, without consulting
Evelina, and then the excitement of her stealthy trips
abroad, undertaken on the rare occasions when she
could trump up a pretext for leaving the shop; since,
as a rule, it was Evelina who took the bundles to
the dyer’s, and delivered the purchases of those
among their customers who were too genteel to be seen
carrying home a bonnet or a bundle of pinking—so
that, had it not been for the excuse of having to
see Mrs. Hawkins’s teething baby, Ann Eliza
would hardly have known what motive to allege for
deserting her usual seat behind the counter.
The infrequency of her walks made
them the chief events of her life. The mere
act of going out from the monastic quiet of the shop
into the tumult of the streets filled her with a subdued
excitement which grew too intense for pleasure as she
was swallowed by the engulfing roar of Broadway or
Third Avenue, and began to do timid battle with their
incessant cross-currents of humanity. After
a glance or two into the great show-windows she usually
allowed herself to be swept back into the shelter of
a side-street, and finally regained her own roof in
a state of breathless bewilderment and fatigue; but
gradually, as her nerves were soothed by the familiar
quiet of the little shop, and the click of Evelina’s
pinking-machine, certain sights and sounds would detach
themselves from the torrent along which she had been
swept, and she would devote the rest of the day to
a mental reconstruction of the different episodes
of her walk, till finally it took shape in her thought
as a consecutive and highly-coloured experience, from
which, for weeks afterwards, she would detach some
fragmentary recollection in the course of her long
dialogues with her sister.
But when, to the unwonted excitement
of going out, was added the intenser interest of looking
for a present for Evelina, Ann Eliza’s agitation,
sharpened by concealment, actually preyed upon her
rest; and it was not till the present had been given,
and she had unbosomed herself of the experiences connected
with its purchase, that she could look back with anything
like composure to that stirring moment of her life.
From that day forward, however, she began to take
a certain tranquil pleasure in thinking of Mr. Ramy’s
small shop, not unlike her own in its countrified obscurity,
though the layer of dust which covered its counter
and shelves made the comparison only superficially
acceptable. Still, she did not judge the state
of the shop severely, for Mr. Ramy had told her that
he was alone in the world, and lone men, she was aware,
did not know how to deal with dust. It gave
her a good deal of occupation to wonder why he had
never married, or if, on the other hand, he were a
widower, and had lost all his dear little children;
and she scarcely knew which alternative seemed to make
him the more interesting. In either case, his
life was assuredly a sad one; and she passed many
hours in speculating on the manner in which he probably
spent his evenings. She knew he lived at the
back of his shop, for she had caught, on entering,
a glimpse of a dingy room with a tumbled bed; and
the pervading smell of cold fry suggested that he
probably did his own cooking. She wondered if
he did not often make his tea with water that had
not boiled, and asked herself, almost jealously, who
looked after the shop while he went to market.
Then it occurred to her as likely that he bought his
provisions at the same market as Evelina; and she was
fascinated by the thought that he and her sister might
constantly be meeting in total unconsciousness of
the link between them. Whenever she reached
this stage in her reflexions she lifted a furtive glance
to the clock, whose loud staccato tick was becoming
a part of her inmost being.
The seed sown by these long hours
of meditation germinated at last in the secret wish
to go to market some morning in Evelina’s stead.
As this purpose rose to the surface of Ann Eliza’s
thoughts she shrank back shyly from its contemplation.
A plan so steeped in duplicity had never before taken
shape in her crystalline soul. How was it possible
for her to consider such a step? And, besides,
(she did not possess sufficient logic to mark the downward
trend of this “besides”), what excuse could
she make that would not excite her sister’s
curiosity? From this second query it was an easy
descent to the third: how soon could she manage
to go?
It was Evelina herself, who furnished
the necessary pretext by awaking with a sore throat
on the day when she usually went to market.
It was a Saturday, and as they always had their bit
of steak on Sunday the expedition could not be postponed,
and it seemed natural that Ann Eliza, as she tied
an old stocking around Evelina’s throat, should
announce her intention of stepping round to the butcher’s.
“Oh, Ann Eliza, they’ll
cheat you so,” her sister wailed.
Ann Eliza brushed aside the imputation
with a smile, and a few minutes later, having set
the room to rights, and cast a last glance at the
shop, she was tying on her bonnet with fumbling haste.
The morning was damp and cold, with
a sky full of sulky clouds that would not make room
for the sun, but as yet dropped only an occasional
snow-flake. In the early light the street looked
its meanest and most neglected; but to Ann Eliza,
never greatly troubled by any untidiness for which
she was not responsible, it seemed to wear a singularly
friendly aspect.
A few minutes’ walk brought
her to the market where Evelina made her purchases,
and where, if he had any sense of topographical fitness,
Mr. Ramy must also deal.
Ann Eliza, making her way through
the outskirts of potato-barrels and flabby fish,
found no one in the shop but the gory-aproned butcher
who stood in the background cutting chops.
As she approached him across the tesselation
of fish-scales, blood and saw-dust, he laid aside
his cleaver and not unsympathetically asked:
“Sister sick?”
“Oh, not very—jest
a cold,” she answered, as guiltily as if Evelina’s
illness had been feigned. “We want a steak
as usual, please—and my sister said you
was to be sure to give me jest as good a cut as if
it was her,” she added with child-like candour.
“Oh, that’s all right.”
The butcher picked up his weapon with a grin.
“Your sister knows a cut as well as any of us,”
he remarked.
In another moment, Ann Eliza reflected,
the steak would be cut and wrapped up, and no choice
left her but to turn her disappointed steps toward
home. She was too shy to try to delay the butcher
by such conversational arts as she possessed, but
the approach of a deaf old lady in an antiquated bonnet
and mantle gave her her opportunity.
“Wait on her first, please,”
Ann Eliza whispered. “I ain’t in
any hurry.”
The butcher advanced to his new customer,
and Ann Eliza, palpitating in the back of the shop,
saw that the old lady’s hesitations between
liver and pork chops were likely to be indefinitely
prolonged. They were still unresolved when she
was interrupted by the entrance of a blowsy Irish
girl with a basket on her arm. The newcomer
caused a momentary diversion, and when she had departed
the old lady, who was evidently as intolerant of interruption
as a professional story-teller, insisted on returning
to the beginning of her complicated order, and weighing
anew, with an anxious appeal to the butcher’s
arbitration, the relative advantages of pork and liver.
But even her hesitations, and the intrusion on them
of two or three other customers, were of no avail,
for Mr. Ramy was not among those who entered the shop;
and at last Ann Eliza, ashamed of staying longer,
reluctantly claimed her steak, and walked home through
the thickening snow.
Even to her simple judgment the vanity
of her hopes was plain, and in the clear light that
disappointment turns upon our actions she wondered
how she could have been foolish enough to suppose
that, even if Mr. Ramy did go to that particular
market, he would hit on the same day and hour as herself.
There followed a colourless week unmarked
by farther incident. The old stocking cured
Evelina’s throat, and Mrs. Hawkins dropped in
once or twice to talk of her baby’s teeth; some
new orders for pinking were received, and Evelina
sold a bonnet to the lady with puffed sleeves.
The lady with puffed sleeves—a resident
of “the Square,” whose name they had never
learned, because she always carried her own parcels
home—was the most distinguished and interesting
figure on their horizon. She was youngish, she
was elegant (as the title they had given her implied),
and she had a sweet sad smile about which they had
woven many histories; but even the news of her return
to town—it was her first apparition that
year—failed to arouse Ann Eliza’s
interest. All the small daily happenings which
had once sufficed to fill the hours now appeared to
her in their deadly insignificance; and for the first
time in her long years of drudgery she rebelled at
the dullness of her life. With Evelina such
fits of discontent were habitual and openly proclaimed,
and Ann Eliza still excused them as one of the prerogatives
of youth. Besides, Evelina had not been intended
by Providence to pine in such a narrow life:
in the original plan of things, she had been meant
to marry and have a baby, to wear silk on Sundays,
and take a leading part in a Church circle. Hitherto
opportunity had played her false; and for all her superior
aspirations and carefully crimped hair she had remained
as obscure and unsought as Ann Eliza. But the
elder sister, who had long since accepted her own
fate, had never accepted Evelina’s. Once
a pleasant young man who taught in Sunday-school had
paid the younger Miss Bunner a few shy visits.
That was years since, and he had speedily vanished
from their view. Whether he had carried with
him any of Evelina’s illusions, Ann Eliza had
never discovered; but his attentions had clad her
sister in a halo of exquisite possibilities.
Ann Eliza, in those days, had never
dreamed of allowing herself the luxury of self-pity:
it seemed as much a personal right of Evelina’s
as her elaborately crinkled hair. But now she
began to transfer to herself a portion of the sympathy
she had so long bestowed on Evelina. She had
at last recognized her right to set up some lost opportunities
of her own; and once that dangerous precedent established,
they began to crowd upon her memory.
It was at this stage of Ann Eliza’s
transformation that Evelina, looking up one evening
from her work, said suddenly: “My!
She’s stopped.”
Ann Eliza, raising her eyes from a
brown merino seam, followed her sister’s glance
across the room. It was a Monday, and they always
wound the clock on Sundays.
“Are you sure you wound her yesterday, Evelina?”
“Jest as sure as I live.
She must be broke. I’ll go and see.”
Evelina laid down the hat she was
trimming, and took the clock from its shelf.
“There—I knew it!
She’s wound jest as tight—what
you suppose’s happened to her, Ann Eliza?”
“I dunno, I’m sure,”
said the elder sister, wiping her spectacles before
proceeding to a close examination of the clock.
With anxiously bent heads the two
women shook and turned it, as though they were trying
to revive a living thing; but it remained unresponsive
to their touch, and at length Evelina laid it down
with a sigh.
“Seems like somethin’
dead, don’t it, Ann Eliza? How still
the room is!”
“Yes, ain’t it?”
“Well, I’ll put her back
where she belongs,” Evelina continued, in the
tone of one about to perform the last offices for
the departed. “And I guess,” she
added, “you’ll have to step round to Mr.
Ramy’s to-morrow, and see if he can fix her.”
Ann Eliza’s face burned.
“I—yes, I guess I’ll have to,”
she stammered, stooping to pick up a spool of cotton
which had rolled to the floor. A sudden heart-throb
stretched the seams of her flat alpaca bosom, and
a pulse leapt to life in each of her temples.
That night, long after Evelina slept,
Ann Eliza lay awake in the unfamiliar silence, more
acutely conscious of the nearness of the crippled
clock than when it had volubly told out the minutes.
The next morning she woke from a troubled dream of
having carried it to Mr. Ramy’s, and found that
he and his shop had vanished; and all through the
day’s occupations the memory of this dream oppressed
her.
It had been agreed that Ann Eliza
should take the clock to be repaired as soon as they
had dined; but while they were still at table a weak-eyed
little girl in a black apron stabbed with innumerable
pins burst in on them with the cry: “Oh,
Miss Bunner, for mercy’s sake! Miss Mellins
has been took again.”
Miss Mellins was the dress-maker upstairs,
and the weak-eyed child one of her youthful apprentices.
Ann Eliza started from her seat.
“I’ll come at once. Quick, Evelina,
the cordial!”
By this euphemistic name the sisters
designated a bottle of cherry brandy, the last of
a dozen inherited from their grandmother, which they
kept locked in their cupboard against such emergencies.
A moment later, cordial in hand, Ann Eliza was hurrying
upstairs behind the weak-eyed child.
Miss Mellins’ “turn”
was sufficiently serious to detain Ann Eliza for nearly
two hours, and dusk had fallen when she took up the
depleted bottle of cordial and descended again to the
shop. It was empty, as usual, and Evelina sat
at her pinking-machine in the back room. Ann
Eliza was still agitated by her efforts to restore
the dress-maker, but in spite of her preoccupation
she was struck, as soon as she entered, by the loud
tick of the clock, which still stood on the shelf
where she had left it.
“Why, she’s going!”
she gasped, before Evelina could question her about
Miss Mellins. “Did she start up again by
herself?”
“Oh, no; but I couldn’t
stand not knowing what time it was, I’ve got
so accustomed to having her round; and just after you
went upstairs Mrs. Hawkins dropped in, so I asked
her to tend the store for a minute, and I clapped
on my things and ran right round to Mr. Ramy’s.
It turned out there wasn’t anything the matter
with her— nothin’ on’y a speck
of dust in the works—and he fixed her for
me in a minute and I brought her right back.
Ain’t it lovely to hear her going again?
But tell me about Miss Mellins, quick!”
For a moment Ann Eliza found no words.
Not till she learned that she had missed her chance
did she understand how many hopes had hung upon it.
Even now she did not know why she had wanted so much
to see the clock-maker again.
“I s’pose it’s because
nothing’s ever happened to me,” she thought,
with a twinge of envy for the fate which gave Evelina
every opportunity that came their way. “She
had the Sunday-school teacher too,” Ann Eliza
murmured to herself; but she was well-trained in the
arts of renunciation, and after a scarcely perceptible
pause she plunged into a detailed description of the
dress-maker’s “turn.”
Evelina, when her curiosity was roused,
was an insatiable questioner, and it was supper-time
before she had come to the end of her enquiries about
Miss Mellins; but when the two sisters had seated
themselves at their evening meal Ann Eliza at last
found a chance to say: “So she on’y
had a speck of dust in her.”
Evelina understood at once that the
reference was not to Miss Mellins. “Yes—at
least he thinks so,” she answered, helping herself
as a matter of course to the first cup of tea.
“On’y to think!” murmured Ann Eliza.
“But he isn’t sure,”
Evelina continued, absently pushing the teapot toward
her sister. “It may be something wrong
with the—I forget what he called it.
Anyhow, he said he’d call round and see, day
after to-morrow, after supper.”
“Who said?” gasped Ann Eliza.
“Why, Mr. Ramy, of course.
I think he’s real nice, Ann Eliza. And
I don’t believe he’s forty; but he does
look sick. I guess he’s pretty lonesome,
all by himself in that store. He as much as
told me so, and somehow”—Evelina paused
and bridled—“I kinder thought that
maybe his saying he’d call round about the clock
was on’y just an excuse. He said it just
as I was going out of the store. What you think,
Ann Eliza?”
“Oh, I don’t har’ly
know.” To save herself, Ann Eliza could
produce nothing warmer.
“Well, I don’t pretend
to be smarter than other folks,” said Evelina,
putting a conscious hand to her hair, “but I
guess Mr. Herman Ramy wouldn’t be sorry to pass
an evening here, ’stead of spending it all alone
in that poky little place of his.”
Her self-consciousness irritated Ann Eliza.
“I guess he’s got plenty
of friends of his own,” she said, almost harshly.
“No, he ain’t, either. He’s
got hardly any.”
“Did he tell you that too?”
Even to her own ears there was a faint sneer in the
interrogation.
“Yes, he did,” said Evelina,
dropping her lids with a smile. “He seemed
to be just crazy to talk to somebody—somebody
agreeable, I mean. I think the man’s unhappy,
Ann Eliza.”
“So do I,” broke from the elder sister.
“He seems such an educated man,
too. He was reading the paper when I went in.
Ain’t it sad to think of his being reduced to
that little store, after being years at Tiff’ny’s,
and one of the head men in their clock-department?”
“He told you all that?”
“Why, yes. I think he’d
a’ told me everything ever happened to him if
I’d had the time to stay and listen. I
tell you he’s dead lonely, Ann Eliza.”
“Yes,” said Ann Eliza.