SOLA TELLS ME HER STORY
When consciousness returned, and,
as I soon learned, I was down but a moment, I sprang
quickly to my feet searching for my sword, and there
I found it, buried to the hilt in the green breast
of Zad, who lay stone dead upon the ochre moss of
the ancient sea bottom. As I regained my full
senses I found his weapon piercing my left breast,
but only through the flesh and muscles which cover
my ribs, entering near the center of my chest and
coming out below the shoulder. As I had lunged
I had turned so that his sword merely passed beneath
the muscles, inflicting a painful but not dangerous
wound.
Removing the blade from my body I
also regained my own, and turning my back upon his
ugly carcass, I moved, sick, sore, and disgusted,
toward the chariots which bore my retinue and my belongings.
A murmur of Martian applause greeted me, but I cared
not for it.
Bleeding and weak I reached my women,
who, accustomed to such happenings, dressed my wounds,
applying the wonderful healing and remedial agents
which make only the most instantaneous of death blows
fatal. Give a Martian woman a chance and death
must take a back seat. They soon had me patched
up so that, except for weakness from loss of blood
and a little soreness around the wound, I suffered
no great distress from this thrust which, under earthly
treatment, undoubtedly would have put me flat on my
back for days.
As soon as they were through with
me I hastened to the chariot of Dejah Thoris, where
I found my poor Sola with her chest swathed in bandages,
but apparently little the worse for her encounter with
Sarkoja, whose dagger it seemed had struck the edge
of one of Sola’s metal breast ornaments and,
thus deflected, had inflicted but a slight flesh wound.
As I approached I found Dejah Thoris
lying prone upon her silks and furs, her lithe form
wracked with sobs. She did not notice my presence,
nor did she hear me speaking with Sola, who was standing
a short distance from the vehicle.
“Is she injured?” I asked
of Sola, indicating Dejah Thoris by an inclination
of my head.
“No,” she answered, “she thinks
that you are dead.”
“And that her grandmother’s
cat may now have no one to polish its teeth?”
I queried, smiling.
“I think you wrong her, John
Carter,” said Sola. “I do not understand
either her ways or yours, but I am sure the granddaughter
of ten thousand jeddaks would never grieve like this
over any who held but the highest claim upon her affections.
They are a proud race, but they are just, as are
all Barsoomians, and you must have hurt or wronged
her grievously that she will not admit your existence
living, though she mourns you dead.
“Tears are a strange sight upon
Barsoom,” she continued, “and so it is
difficult for me to interpret them. I have seen
but two people weep in all my life, other than Dejah
Thoris; one wept from sorrow, the other from baffled
rage. The first was my mother, years ago before
they killed her; the other was Sarkoja, when they dragged
her from me today.”
“Your mother!” I exclaimed,
“but, Sola, you could not have known your mother,
child.”
“But I did. And my father
also,” she added. “If you would like
to hear the strange and un-Barsoomian story come to
the chariot tonight, John Carter, and I will tell
you that of which I have never spoken in all my life
before. And now the signal has been given to
resume the march, you must go.”
“I will come tonight, Sola,”
I promised. “Be sure to tell Dejah Thoris
I am alive and well. I shall not force myself
upon her, and be sure that you do not let her know
I saw her tears. If she would speak with me
I but await her command.”
Sola mounted the chariot, which was
swinging into its place in line, and I hastened to
my waiting thoat and galloped to my station beside
Tars Tarkas at the rear of the column.
We made a most imposing and awe-inspiring
spectacle as we strung out across the yellow landscape;
the two hundred and fifty ornate and brightly colored
chariots, preceded by an advance guard of some two
hundred mounted warriors and chieftains riding five
abreast and one hundred yards apart, and followed
by a like number in the same formation, with a score
or more of flankers on either side; the fifty extra
mastodons, or heavy draught animals, known as zitidars,
and the five or six hundred extra thoats of the warriors
running loose within the hollow square formed by the
surrounding warriors. The gleaming metal and
jewels of the gorgeous ornaments of the men and women,
duplicated in the trappings of the zitidars and thoats,
and interspersed with the flashing colors of magnificent
silks and furs and feathers, lent a barbaric splendor
to the caravan which would have turned an East Indian
potentate green with envy.
The enormous broad tires of the chariots
and the padded feet of the animals brought forth no
sound from the moss-covered sea bottom; and so we
moved in utter silence, like some huge phantasmagoria,
except when the stillness was broken by the guttural
growling of a goaded zitidar, or the squealing of
fighting thoats. The green Martians converse
but little, and then usually in monosyllables, low
and like the faint rumbling of distant thunder.
We traversed a trackless waste of
moss which, bending to the pressure of broad tire
or padded foot, rose up again behind us, leaving no
sign that we had passed. We might indeed have
been the wraiths of the departed dead upon the dead
sea of that dying planet for all the sound or sign
we made in passing. It was the first march of
a large body of men and animals I had ever witnessed
which raised no dust and left no spoor; for there
is no dust upon Mars except in the cultivated districts
during the winter months, and even then the absence
of high winds renders it almost unnoticeable.
We camped that night at the foot of
the hills we had been approaching for two days and
which marked the southern boundary of this particular
sea. Our animals had been two days without drink,
nor had they had water for nearly two months, not since
shortly after leaving Thark; but, as Tars Tarkas explained
to me, they require but little and can live almost
indefinitely upon the moss which covers Barsoom, and
which, he told me, holds in its tiny stems sufficient
moisture to meet the limited demands of the animals.
After partaking of my evening meal
of cheese-like food and vegetable milk I sought out
Sola, whom I found working by the light of a torch
upon some of Tars Tarkas’ trappings. She
looked up at my approach, her face lighting with pleasure
and with welcome.
“I am glad you came,”
she said; “Dejah Thoris sleeps and I am lonely.
Mine own people do not care for me, John Carter; I
am too unlike them. It is a sad fate, since
I must live my life amongst them, and I often wish
that I were a true green Martian woman, without love
and without hope; but I have known love and so I am
lost.
“I promised to tell you my story,
or rather the story of my parents. From what
I have learned of you and the ways of your people I
am sure that the tale will not seem strange to you,
but among green Martians it has no parallel within
the memory of the oldest living Thark, nor do our
legends hold many similar tales.
“My mother was rather small,
in fact too small to be allowed the responsibilities
of maternity, as our chieftains breed principally
for size. She was also less cold and cruel than
most green Martian women, and caring little for their
society, she often roamed the deserted avenues of
Thark alone, or went and sat among the wild flowers
that deck the nearby hills, thinking thoughts and wishing
wishes which I believe I alone among Tharkian women
today may understand, for am I not the child of my
mother?
“And there among the hills she
met a young warrior, whose duty it was to guard the
feeding zitidars and thoats and see that they roamed
not beyond the hills. They spoke at first only
of such things as interest a community of Tharks,
but gradually, as they came to meet more often, and,
as was now quite evident to both, no longer by chance,
they talked about themselves, their likes, their ambitions
and their hopes. She trusted him and told him
of the awful repugnance she felt for the cruelties
of their kind, for the hideous, loveless lives they
must ever lead, and then she waited for the storm
of denunciation to break from his cold, hard lips;
but instead he took her in his arms and kissed her.
“They kept their love a secret
for six long years. She, my mother, was of the
retinue of the great Tal Hajus, while her lover was
a simple warrior, wearing only his own metal.
Had their defection from the traditions of the Tharks
been discovered both would have paid the penalty in
the great arena before Tal Hajus and the assembled
hordes.
“The egg from which I came was
hidden beneath a great glass vessel upon the highest
and most inaccessible of the partially ruined towers
of ancient Thark. Once each year my mother visited
it for the five long years it lay there in the process
of incubation. She dared not come oftener, for
in the mighty guilt of her conscience she feared that
her every move was watched. During this period
my father gained great distinction as a warrior and
had taken the metal from several chieftains.
His love for my mother had never diminished, and
his own ambition in life was to reach a point where
he might wrest the metal from Tal Hajus himself, and
thus, as ruler of the Tharks, be free to claim her
as his own, as well as, by the might of his power,
protect the child which otherwise would be quickly
dispatched should the truth become known.
“It was a wild dream, that of
wresting the metal from Tal Hajus in five short years,
but his advance was rapid, and he soon stood high
in the councils of Thark. But one day the chance
was lost forever, in so far as it could come in time
to save his loved ones, for he was ordered away upon
a long expedition to the ice-clad south, to make war
upon the natives there and despoil them of their furs,
for such is the manner of the green Barsoomian; he
does not labor for what he can wrest in battle from
others.
“He was gone for four years,
and when he returned all had been over for three;
for about a year after his departure, and shortly before
the time for the return of an expedition which had
gone forth to fetch the fruits of a community incubator,
the egg had hatched. Thereafter my mother continued
to keep me in the old tower, visiting me nightly and
lavishing upon me the love the community life would
have robbed us both of. She hoped, upon the return
of the expedition from the incubator, to mix me with
the other young assigned to the quarters of Tal Hajus,
and thus escape the fate which would surely follow
discovery of her sin against the ancient traditions
of the green men.
“She taught me rapidly the language
and customs of my kind, and one night she told me
the story I have told to you up to this point, impressing
upon me the necessity for absolute secrecy and the
great caution I must exercise after she had placed
me with the other young Tharks to permit no one to
guess that I was further advanced in education than
they, nor by any sign to divulge in the presence of
others my affection for her, or my knowledge of my
parentage; and then drawing me close to her she whispered
in my ear the name of my father.
“And then a light flashed out
upon the darkness of the tower chamber, and there
stood Sarkoja, her gleaming, baleful eyes fixed in
a frenzy of loathing and contempt upon my mother.
The torrent of hatred and abuse she poured out upon
her turned my young heart cold in terror. That
she had heard the entire story was apparent, and that
she had suspected something wrong from my mother’s
long nightly absences from her quarters accounted
for her presence there on that fateful night.
“One thing she had not heard,
nor did she know, the whispered name of my father.
This was apparent from her repeated demands upon my
mother to disclose the name of her partner in sin,
but no amount of abuse or threats could wring this
from her, and to save me from needless torture she
lied, for she told Sarkoja that she alone knew nor
would she even tell her child.
“With final imprecations, Sarkoja
hastened away to Tal Hajus to report her discovery,
and while she was gone my mother, wrapping me in the
silks and furs of her night coverings, so that I was
scarcely noticeable, descended to the streets and
ran wildly away toward the outskirts of the city,
in the direction which led to the far south, out toward
the man whose protection she might not claim, but on
whose face she wished to look once more before she
died.
“As we neared the city’s
southern extremity a sound came to us from across
the mossy flat, from the direction of the only pass
through the hills which led to the gates, the pass
by which caravans from either north or south or east
or west would enter the city. The sounds we
heard were the squealing of thoats and the grumbling
of zitidars, with the occasional clank of arms which
announced the approach of a body of warriors.
The thought uppermost in her mind was that it was
my father returned from his expedition, but the cunning
of the Thark held her from headlong and precipitate
flight to greet him.
“Retreating into the shadows
of a doorway she awaited the coming of the cavalcade
which shortly entered the avenue, breaking its formation
and thronging the thoroughfare from wall to wall.
As the head of the procession passed us the lesser
moon swung clear of the overhanging roofs and lit
up the scene with all the brilliancy of her wondrous
light. My mother shrank further back into the
friendly shadows, and from her hiding place saw that
the expedition was not that of my father, but the
returning caravan bearing the young Tharks.
Instantly her plan was formed, and as a great chariot
swung close to our hiding place she slipped stealthily
in upon the trailing tailboard, crouching low in the
shadow of the high side, straining me to her bosom
in a frenzy of love.
“She knew, what I did not, that
never again after that night would she hold me to
her breast, nor was it likely we would ever look upon
each other’s face again. In the confusion
of the plaza she mixed me with the other children,
whose guardians during the journey were now free to
relinquish their responsibility. We were herded
together into a great room, fed by women who had not
accompanied the expedition, and the next day we were
parceled out among the retinues of the chieftains.
“I never saw my mother after
that night. She was imprisoned by Tal Hajus,
and every effort, including the most horrible and shameful
torture, was brought to bear upon her to wring from
her lips the name of my father; but she remained steadfast
and loyal, dying at last amidst the laughter of Tal
Hajus and his chieftains during some awful torture
she was undergoing.
“I learned afterwards that she
told them that she had killed me to save me from a
like fate at their hands, and that she had thrown my
body to the white apes. Sarkoja alone disbelieved
her, and I feel to this day that she suspects my true
origin, but does not dare expose me, at the present,
at all events, because she also guesses, I am sure,
the identity of my father.
“When he returned from his expedition
and learned the story of my mother’s fate I
was present as Tal Hajus told him; but never by the
quiver of a muscle did he betray the slightest emotion;
only he did not laugh as Tal Hajus gleefully described
her death struggles. From that moment on he was
the cruelest of the cruel, and I am awaiting the day
when he shall win the goal of his ambition, and feel
the carcass of Tal Hajus beneath his foot, for I am
as sure that he but waits the opportunity to wreak
a terrible vengeance, and that his great love is as
strong in his breast as when it first transfigured
him nearly forty years ago, as I am that we sit here
upon the edge of a world-old ocean while sensible people
sleep, John Carter.”
“And your father, Sola, is he with us now?”
I asked.
“Yes,” she replied, “but
he does not know me for what I am, nor does he know
who betrayed my mother to Tal Hajus. I alone
know my father’s name, and only I and Tal Hajus
and Sarkoja know that it was she who carried the tale
that brought death and torture upon her he loved.”
We sat silent for a few moments, she
wrapped in the gloomy thoughts of her terrible past,
and I in pity for the poor creatures whom the heartless,
senseless customs of their race had doomed to loveless
lives of cruelty and of hate. Presently she spoke.
“John Carter, if ever a real
man walked the cold, dead bosom of Barsoom you are
one. I know that I can trust you, and because
the knowledge may someday help you or him or Dejah
Thoris or myself, I am going to tell you the name
of my father, nor place any restrictions or conditions
upon your tongue. When the time comes, speak
the truth if it seems best to you. I trust you
because I know that you are not cursed with the terrible
trait of absolute and unswerving truthfulness, that
you could lie like one of your own Virginia gentlemen
if a lie would save others from sorrow or suffering.
My father’s name is Tars Tarkas.”