1
Sara
Once on a dark winter’s day,
when the yellow fog hung so thick and heavy in the
streets of London that the lamps were lighted and
the shop windows blazed with gas as they do at night,
an odd-looking little girl sat in a cab with her
father and was driven rather slowly through the big
thoroughfares.
She sat with her feet tucked under
her, and leaned against her father, who held her in
his arm, as she stared out of the window at the passing
people with a queer old-fashioned thoughtfulness in
her big eyes.
She was such a little girl that one
did not expect to see such a look on her small face.
It would have been an old look for a child of twelve,
and Sara Crewe was only seven. The fact was,
however, that she was always dreaming and thinking
odd things and could not herself remember any time
when she had not been thinking things about grown-up
people and the world they belonged to. She felt
as if she had lived a long, long time.
At this moment she was remembering
the voyage she had just made from Bombay with her
father, Captain Crewe. She was thinking of the
big ship, of the Lascars passing silently to and fro
on it, of the children playing about on the hot deck,
and of some young officers’ wives who used to
try to make her talk to them and laugh at the things
she said.
Principally, she was thinking of what
a queer thing it was that at one time one was in India
in the blazing sun, and then in the middle of the
ocean, and then driving in a strange vehicle through
strange streets where the day was as dark as the night.
She found this so puzzling that she moved closer to
her father.
“Papa,” she said in a
low, mysterious little voice which was almost a whisper,
“papa.”
“What is it, darling?”
Captain Crewe answered, holding her closer and looking
down into her face. “What is Sara thinking
of?”
“Is this the place?”
Sara whispered, cuddling still closer to him.
“Is it, papa?”
“Yes, little Sara, it is.
We have reached it at last.” And though
she was only seven years old, she knew that he felt
sad when he said it.
It seemed to her many years since
he had begun to prepare her mind for “the place,”
as she always called it. Her mother had died
when she was born, so she had never known or missed
her. Her young, handsome, rich, petting father
seemed to be the only relation she had in the world.
They had always played together and been fond of
each other. She only knew he was rich because
she had heard people say so when they thought she was
not listening, and she had also heard them say that
when she grew up she would be rich, too. She
did not know all that being rich meant. She
had always lived in a beautiful bungalow, and had
been used to seeing many servants who made salaams
to her and called her “Missee Sahib,”
and gave her her own way in everything. She
had had toys and pets and an ayah who worshipped her,
and she had gradually learned that people who were
rich had these things. That, however, was all
she knew about it.
During her short life only one thing
had troubled her, and that thing was “the place”
she was to be taken to some day. The climate
of India was very bad for children, and as soon as
possible they were sent away from it—generally
to England and to school. She had seen other
children go away, and had heard their fathers and
mothers talk about the letters they received from
them. She had known that she would be obliged
to go also, and though sometimes her father’s
stories of the voyage and the new country had attracted
her, she had been troubled by the thought that he
could not stay with her.
“Couldn’t you go to that
place with me, papa?” she had asked when she
was five years old. “Couldn’t you
go to school, too? I would help you with your
lessons.”
“But you will not have to stay
for a very long time, little Sara,” he had always
said. “You will go to a nice house where
there will be a lot of little girls, and you will play
together, and I will send you plenty of books, and
you will grow so fast that it will seem scarcely a
year before you are big enough and clever enough to
come back and take care of papa.”
She had liked to think of that.
To keep the house for her father; to ride with him,
and sit at the head of his table when he had dinner
parties; to talk to him and read his books—that
would be what she would like most in the world, and
if one must go away to “the place” in
England to attain it, she must make up her mind to
go. She did not care very much for other little
girls, but if she had plenty of books she could console
herself. She liked books more than anything else,
and was, in fact, always inventing stories of beautiful
things and telling them to herself. Sometimes
she had told them to her father, and he had liked
them as much as she did.
“Well, papa,” she said
softly, “if we are here I suppose we must be
resigned.”
He laughed at her old-fashioned speech
and kissed her. He was really not at all resigned
himself, though he knew he must keep that a secret.
His quaint little Sara had been a great companion
to him, and he felt he should be a lonely fellow when,
on his return to India, he went into his bungalow
knowing he need not expect to see the small figure
in its white frock come forward to meet him.
So he held her very closely in his arms as the cab
rolled into the big, dull square in which stood the
house which was their destination.
It was a big, dull, brick house, exactly
like all the others in its row, but that on the front
door there shone a brass plate on which was engraved
in black letters:
Miss Minchin,
Select Seminary for Young Ladies.
“Here we are, Sara,” said
Captain Crewe, making his voice sound as cheerful
as possible. Then he lifted her out of the cab
and they mounted the steps and rang the bell.
Sara often thought afterward that the house was somehow
exactly like Miss Minchin. It was respectable
and well furnished, but everything in it was ugly;
and the very armchairs seemed to have hard bones in
them. In the hall everything was hard and polished—even
the red cheeks of the moon face on the tall clock
in the corner had a severe varnished look. The
drawing room into which they were ushered was covered
by a carpet with a square pattern upon it, the chairs
were square, and a heavy marble timepiece stood upon
the heavy marble mantel.
As she sat down in one of the stiff
mahogany chairs, Sara cast one of her quick looks
about her.
“I don’t like it, papa,”
she said. “But then I dare say soldiers—
even brave ones—don’t really like
going into battle.”
Captain Crewe laughed outright at
this. He was young and full of fun, and he never
tired of hearing Sara’s queer speeches.
“Oh, little Sara,” he
said. “What shall I do when I have no one
to say solemn things to me? No one else is as
solemn as you are.”
“But why do solemn things make
you laugh so?” inquired Sara.
“Because you are such fun when
you say them,” he answered, laughing still more.
And then suddenly he swept her into his arms and
kissed her very hard, stopping laughing all at once
and looking almost as if tears had come into his eyes.
It was just then that Miss Minchin
entered the room. She was very like her house,
Sara felt: tall and dull, and respectable and
ugly. She had large, cold, fishy eyes, and a large,
cold, fishy smile. It spread itself into a very
large smile when she saw Sara and Captain Crewe.
She had heard a great many desirable things of the
young soldier from the lady who had recommended her
school to him. Among other things, she had heard
that he was a rich father who was willing to spend
a great deal of money on his little daughter.
“It will be a great privilege
to have charge of such a beautiful and promising child,
Captain Crewe,” she said, taking Sara’s
hand and stroking it. “Lady Meredith has
told me of her unusual cleverness. A clever child
is a great treasure in an establishment like mine.”
Sara stood quietly, with her eyes
fixed upon Miss Minchin’s face. She was
thinking something odd, as usual.
“Why does she say I am a beautiful
child?” she was thinking. “I am not
beautiful at all. Colonel Grange’s little
girl, Isobel, is beautiful. She has dimples
and rose-colored cheeks, and long hair the color of
gold. I have short black hair and green eyes;
besides which, I am a thin child and not fair in the
least. I am one of the ugliest children I ever
saw. She is beginning by telling a story.”
She was mistaken, however, in thinking
she was an ugly child. She was not in the least
like Isobel Grange, who had been the beauty of the
regiment, but she had an odd charm of her own.
She was a slim, supple creature, rather tall for
her age, and had an intense, attractive little face.
Her hair was heavy and quite black and only curled
at the tips; her eyes were greenish gray, it is true,
but they were big, wonderful eyes with long, black
lashes, and though she herself did not like the color
of them, many other people did. Still she was
very firm in her belief that she was an ugly little
girl, and she was not at all elated by Miss Minchin’s
flattery.
“I should be telling a story
if I said she was beautiful,” she thought; “and
I should know I was telling a story. I believe
I am as ugly as she is—in my way.
What did she say that for?”
After she had known Miss Minchin longer
she learned why she had said it. She discovered
that she said the same thing to each papa and mamma
who brought a child to her school.
Sara stood near her father and listened
while he and Miss Minchin talked. She had been
brought to the seminary because Lady Meredith’s
two little girls had been educated there, and Captain
Crewe had a great respect for Lady Meredith’s
experience. Sara was to be what was known as
“a parlor boarder,” and she was to enjoy
even greater privileges than parlor boarders usually
did. She was to have a pretty bedroom and sitting
room of her own; she was to have a pony and a carriage,
and a maid to take the place of the ayah who had been
her nurse in India.
“I am not in the least anxious
about her education,” Captain Crewe said, with
his gay laugh, as he held Sara’s hand and patted
it. “The difficulty will be to keep her
from learning too fast and too much. She is
always sitting with her little nose burrowing into
books. She doesn’t read them, Miss Minchin;
she gobbles them up as if she were a little wolf instead
of a little girl. She is always starving for
new books to gobble, and she wants grown-up books—great,
big, fat ones—French and German as well
as English—history and biography and poets,
and all sorts of things. Drag her away from
her books when she reads too much. Make her ride
her pony in the Row or go out and buy a new doll.
She ought to play more with dolls.”
“Papa,” said Sara, “you
see, if I went out and bought a new doll every few
days I should have more than I could be fond of.
Dolls ought to be intimate friends. Emily is
going to be my intimate friend.”
Captain Crewe looked at Miss Minchin
and Miss Minchin looked at Captain Crewe.
“Who is Emily?” she inquired.
“Tell her, Sara,” Captain Crewe said,
smiling.
Sara’s green-gray eyes looked
very solemn and quite soft as she answered.
“She is a doll I haven’t
got yet,” she said. “She is a doll
papa is going to buy for me. We are going out
together to find her. I have called her Emily.
She is going to be my friend when papa is gone.
I want her to talk to about him.”
Miss Minchin’s large, fishy
smile became very flattering indeed.
“What an original child!”
she said. “What a darling little creature!”
“Yes,” said Captain Crewe,
drawing Sara close. “She is a darling
little creature. Take great care of her for me,
Miss Minchin.”
Sara stayed with her father at his
hotel for several days; in fact, she remained with
him until he sailed away again to India. They
went out and visited many big shops together, and bought
a great many things. They bought, indeed, a great
many more things than Sara needed; but Captain Crewe
was a rash, innocent young man and wanted his little
girl to have everything she admired and everything
he admired himself, so between them they collected
a wardrobe much too grand for a child of seven.
There were velvet dresses trimmed with costly furs,
and lace dresses, and embroidered ones, and hats with
great, soft ostrich feathers, and ermine coats and
muffs, and boxes of tiny gloves and handkerchiefs
and silk stockings in such abundant supplies that
the polite young women behind the counters whispered
to each other that the odd little girl with the big,
solemn eyes must be at least some foreign princess—perhaps
the little daughter of an Indian rajah.
And at last they found Emily, but
they went to a number of toy shops and looked at a
great many dolls before they discovered her.
“I want her to look as if she
wasn’t a doll really,” Sara said.
“I want her to look as if she LISTENS when I
talk to her. The trouble with dolls, papa”—and
she put her head on one side and reflected as she
said it—“the trouble with dolls is
that they never seem to hear.” So
they looked at big ones and little ones—
at dolls with black eyes and dolls with blue—at
dolls with brown curls and dolls with golden braids,
dolls dressed and dolls undressed.
“You see,” Sara said when
they were examining one who had no clothes. “If,
when I find her, she has no frocks, we can take her
to a dressmaker and have her things made to fit.
They will fit better if they are tried on.”
After a number of disappointments
they decided to walk and look in at the shop windows
and let the cab follow them. They had passed
two or three places without even going in, when, as
they were approaching a shop which was really not
a very large one, Sara suddenly started and clutched
her father’s arm.
“Oh, papa!” she cried. “There
is Emily!”
A flush had risen to her face and
there was an expression in her green-gray eyes as
if she had just recognized someone she was intimate
with and fond of.
“She is actually waiting there
for us!” she said. “Let us go in
to her.”
“Dear me,” said Captain
Crewe, “I feel as if we ought to have someone
to introduce us.”
“You must introduce me and I
will introduce you,” said Sara. “But
I knew her the minute I saw her—so perhaps
she knew me, too.”
Perhaps she had known her. She
had certainly a very intelligent expression in her
eyes when Sara took her in her arms. She was a
large doll, but not too large to carry about easily;
she had naturally curling golden-brown hair, which
hung like a mantle about her, and her eyes were a
deep, clear, gray-blue, with soft, thick eyelashes
which were real eyelashes and not mere painted lines.
“Of course,” said Sara,
looking into her face as she held her on her knee,
“of course papa, this is Emily.”
So Emily was bought and actually taken
to a children’s outfitter’s shop and measured
for a wardrobe as grand as Sara’s own.
She had lace frocks, too, and velvet and muslin ones,
and hats and coats and beautiful lace-trimmed underclothes,
and gloves and handkerchiefs and furs.
“I should like her always to
look as if she was a child with a good mother,”
said Sara. “I’m her mother, though
I am going to make a companion of her.”
Captain Crewe would really have enjoyed
the shopping tremendously, but that a sad thought
kept tugging at his heart. This all meant that
he was going to be separated from his beloved, quaint
little comrade.
He got out of his bed in the middle
of that night and went and stood looking down at Sara,
who lay asleep with Emily in her arms. Her black
hair was spread out on the pillow and Emily’s
golden-brown hair mingled with it, both of them had
lace-ruffled nightgowns, and both had long eyelashes
which lay and curled up on their cheeks. Emily
looked so like a real child that Captain Crewe felt
glad she was there. He drew a big sigh and pulled
his mustache with a boyish expression.
“Heigh-ho, little Sara!”
he said to himself “I don’t believe you
know how much your daddy will miss you.”
The next day he took her to Miss Minchin’s
and left her there. He was to sail away the next
morning. He explained to Miss Minchin that his
solicitors, Messrs. Barrow & Skipworth, had charge
of his affairs in England and would give her any advice
she wanted, and that they would pay the bills she sent
in for Sara’s expenses. He would write
to Sara twice a week, and she was to be given every
pleasure she asked for.
“She is a sensible little thing,
and she never wants anything it isn’t safe to
give her,” he said.
Then he went with Sara into her little
sitting room and they bade each other good-by.
Sara sat on his knee and held the lapels of his coat
in her small hands, and looked long and hard at his
face.
“Are you learning me by heart,
little Sara?” he said, stroking her hair.
“No,” she answered.
“I know you by heart. You are inside my
heart.” And they put their arms round each
other and kissed as if they would never let each other
go.
When the cab drove away from the door,
Sara was sitting on the floor of her sitting room,
with her hands under her chin and her eyes following
it until it had turned the corner of the square.
Emily was sitting by her, and she looked after it,
too. When Miss Minchin sent her sister, Miss
Amelia, to see what the child was doing, she found
she could not open the door.
“I have locked it,” said
a queer, polite little voice from inside. “I
want to be quite by myself, if you please.”
Miss Amelia was fat and dumpy, and
stood very much in awe of her sister. She was
really the better-natured person of the two, but she
never disobeyed Miss Minchin. She went downstairs
again, looking almost alarmed.
“I never saw such a funny, old-fashioned
child, sister,” she said. “She has
locked herself in, and she is not making the least
particle of noise.”
“It is much better than if she
kicked and screamed, as some of them do,” Miss
Minchin answered. “I expected that a child
as much spoiled as she is would set the whole house
in an uproar. If ever a child was given her own
way in everything, she is.”
“I’ve been opening her
trunks and putting her things away,” said Miss
Amelia. “I never saw anything like them—sable
and ermine on her coats, and real Valenciennes lace
on her underclothing. You have seen some of her
clothes. What do you think of them?”
“I think they are perfectly
ridiculous,” replied Miss Minchin, sharply;
“but they will look very well at the head of
the line when we take the schoolchildren to church
on Sunday. She has been provided for as if she
were a little princess.”
And upstairs in the locked room Sara
and Emily sat on the floor and stared at the corner
round which the cab had disappeared, while Captain
Crewe looked backward, waving and kissing his hand
as if he could not bear to stop.
2
A French Lesson
When Sara entered the schoolroom the
next morning everybody looked at her with wide, interested
eyes. By that time every pupil— from
Lavinia Herbert, who was nearly thirteen and felt
quite grown up, to Lottie Legh, who was only just four
and the baby of the school— had heard a
great deal about her. They knew very certainly
that she was Miss Minchin’s show pupil and was
considered a credit to the establishment. One
or two of them had even caught a glimpse of her French
maid, Mariette, who had arrived the evening before.
Lavinia had managed to pass Sara’s room when
the door was open, and had seen Mariette opening a
box which had arrived late from some shop.
“It was full of petticoats with
lace frills on them—frills and frills,”
she whispered to her friend Jessie as she bent over
her geography. “I saw her shaking them
out. I heard Miss Minchin say to Miss Amelia
that her clothes were so grand that they were ridiculous
for a child. My mamma says that children should
be dressed simply. She has got one of those petticoats
on now. I saw it when she sat down.”
“She has silk stockings on!”
whispered Jessie, bending over her geography also.
“And what little feet! I never saw such
little feet.”
“Oh,” sniffed Lavinia,
spitefully, “that is the way her slippers are
made. My mamma says that even big feet can be
made to look small if you have a clever shoemaker.
I don’t think she is pretty at all. Her
eyes are such a queer color.”
“She isn’t pretty as other
pretty people are,” said Jessie, stealing a
glance across the room; “but she makes you want
to look at her again. She has tremendously long
eyelashes, but her eyes are almost green.”
Sara was sitting quietly in her seat,
waiting to be told what to do. She had been placed
near Miss Minchin’s desk. She was not
abashed at all by the many pairs of eyes watching her.
She was interested and looked back quietly at the
children who looked at her. She wondered what
they were thinking of, and if they liked Miss Minchin,
and if they cared for their lessons, and if any of
them had a papa at all like her own. She had
had a long talk with Emily about her papa that morning.
“He is on the sea now, Emily,”
she had said. “We must be very great friends
to each other and tell each other things. Emily,
look at me. You have the nicest eyes I ever saw—but
I wish you could speak.”
She was a child full of imaginings
and whimsical thoughts, and one of her fancies was
that there would be a great deal of comfort in even
pretending that Emily was alive and really heard and
understood. After Mariette had dressed her in
her dark-blue schoolroom frock and tied her hair with
a dark-blue ribbon, she went to Emily, who sat in
a chair of her own, and gave her a book.
“You can read that while I am
downstairs,” she said; and, seeing Mariette
looking at her curiously, she spoke to her with a
serious little face.
“What I believe about dolls,”
she said, “is that they can do things they will
not let us know about. Perhaps, really, Emily
can read and talk and walk, but she will only do it
when people are out of the room. That is her
secret. You see, if people knew that dolls could
do things, they would make them work. So, perhaps,
they have promised each other to keep it a secret.
If you stay in the room, Emily will just sit there
and stare; but if you go out, she will begin to read,
perhaps, or go and look out of the window. Then
if she heard either of us coming, she would just run
back and jump into her chair and pretend she had been
there all the time.”
“Comme elle est drole!”
Mariette said to herself, and when she went downstairs
she told the head housemaid about it. But she
had already begun to like this odd little girl who
had such an intelligent small face and such perfect
manners. She had taken care of children before
who were not so polite. Sara was a very fine
little person, and had a gentle, appreciative way of
saying, “If you please, Mariette,” “Thank
you, Mariette,” which was very charming.
Mariette told the head housemaid that she thanked
her as if she was thanking a lady.
“Elle a l’air d’une
princesse, cette petite,” she said.
Indeed, she was very much pleased with her new little
mistress and liked her place greatly.
After Sara had sat in her seat in
the schoolroom for a few minutes, being looked at
by the pupils, Miss Minchin rapped in a dignified
manner upon her desk.
“Young ladies,” she said,
“I wish to introduce you to your new companion.”
All the little girls rose in their places, and Sara
rose also. “I shall expect you all to be
very agreeable to Miss Crewe; she has just come to
us from a great distance—in fact, from
India. As soon as lessons are over you must make
each other’s acquaintance.”
The pupils bowed ceremoniously, and
Sara made a little curtsy, and then they sat down
and looked at each other again.
“Sara,” said Miss Minchin
in her schoolroom manner, “come here to me.”
She had taken a book from the desk
and was turning over its leaves. Sara went to
her politely.
“As your papa has engaged a
French maid for you,” she began, “I conclude
that he wishes you to make a special study of the French
language.”
Sara felt a little awkward.
“I think he engaged her,”
she said, “because he—he thought I
would like her, Miss Minchin.”
“I am afraid,” said Miss
Minchin, with a slightly sour smile, “that you
have been a very spoiled little girl and always imagine
that things are done because you like them. My
impression is that your papa wished you to learn French.”
If Sara had been older or less punctilious
about being quite polite to people, she could have
explained herself in a very few words. But, as
it was, she felt a flush rising on her cheeks.
Miss Minchin was a very severe and imposing person,
and she seemed so absolutely sure that Sara knew nothing
whatever of French that she felt as if it would be
almost rude to correct her. The truth was that
Sara could not remember the time when she had not
seemed to know French. Her father had often spoken
it to her when she had been a baby. Her mother
had been a French woman, and Captain Crewe had loved
her language, so it happened that Sara had always
heard and been familiar with it.
“I—I have never really
learned French, but—but—”
she began, trying shyly to make herself clear.
One of Miss Minchin’s chief
secret annoyances was that she did not speak French
herself, and was desirous of concealing the irritating
fact. She, therefore, had no intention of discussing
the matter and laying herself open to innocent questioning
by a new little pupil.
“That is enough,” she
said with polite tartness. “If you have
not learned, you must begin at once. The French
master, Monsieur Dufarge, will be here in a few minutes.
Take this book and look at it until he arrives.”
Sara’s cheeks felt warm.
She went back to her seat and opened the book.
She looked at the first page with a grave face.
She knew it would be rude to smile, and she was very
determined not to be rude. But it was very odd
to find herself expected to study a page which told
her that “le pere” meant “the father,”
and “la mere” meant “the mother.”
Miss Minchin glanced toward her scrutinizingly.
“You look rather cross, Sara,”
she said. “I am sorry you do not like
the idea of learning French.”
“I am very fond of it,”
answered Sara, thinking she would try again; “but—”
“You must not say `but’
when you are told to do things,” said Miss Minchin.
“Look at your book again.”
And Sara did so, and did not smile,
even when she found that “le fils” meant
“the son,” and “le frere” meant
“the brother.”
“When Monsieur Dufarge comes,”
she thought, “I can make him understand.”
Monsieur Dufarge arrived very shortly
afterward. He was a very nice, intelligent,
middle-aged Frenchman, and he looked interested when
his eyes fell upon Sara trying politely to seem absorbed
in her little book of phrases.
“Is this a new pupil for me,
madame?” he said to Miss Minchin. “I
hope that is my good fortune.”
“Her papa—Captain
Crewe—is very anxious that she should begin
the language. But I am afraid she has a childish
prejudice against it. She does not seem to wish
to learn,” said Miss Minchin.
“I am sorry of that, mademoiselle,”
he said kindly to Sara. “Perhaps, when
we begin to study together, I may show you that it
is a charming tongue.”
Little Sara rose in her seat.
She was beginning to feel rather desperate, as if
she were almost in disgrace. She looked up into
Monsieur Dufarge’s face with her big, green-gray
eyes, and they were quite innocently appealing.
She knew that he would understand as soon as she
spoke. She began to explain quite simply in
pretty and fluent French. Madame had not understood.
She had not learned French exactly—not out
of books—but her papa and other people
had always spoken it to her, and she had read it and
written it as she had read and written English.
Her papa loved it, and she loved it because he did.
Her dear mamma, who had died when she was born, had
been French. She would be glad to learn anything
monsieur would teach her, but what she had tried to
explain to madame was that she already knew the words
in this book— and she held out the little
book of phrases.
When she began to speak Miss Minchin
started quite violently and sat staring at her over
her eyeglasses, almost indignantly, until she had
finished. Monsieur Dufarge began to smile, and
his smile was one of great pleasure. To hear
this pretty childish voice speaking his own language
so simply and charmingly made him feel almost as if
he were in his native land—which in dark,
foggy days in London sometimes seemed worlds away.
When she had finished, he took the phrase book from
her, with a look almost affectionate. But he
spoke to Miss Minchin.
“Ah, madame,” he said,
“there is not much I can teach her. She
has not learned French; she is French. Her
accent is exquisite.”
“You ought to have told me,”
exclaimed Miss Minchin, much mortified, turning to
Sara.
“I—I tried,”
said Sara. “I—I suppose I did
not begin right.”
Miss Minchin knew she had tried, and
that it had not been her fault that she was not allowed
to explain. And when she saw that the pupils
had been listening and that Lavinia and Jessie were
giggling behind their French grammars, she felt infuriated.
“Silence, young ladies!”
she said severely, rapping upon the desk. “Silence
at once!”
And she began from that minute to
feel rather a grudge against her show pupil.
3
Ermengarde
On that first morning, when Sara sat
at Miss Minchin’s side, aware that the whole
schoolroom was devoting itself to observing her, she
had noticed very soon one little girl, about her own
age, who looked at her very hard with a pair of light,
rather dull, blue eyes. She was a fat child
who did not look as if she were in the least clever,
but she had a good-naturedly pouting mouth. Her
flaxen hair was braided in a tight pigtail, tied with
a ribbon, and she had pulled this pigtail around her
neck, and was biting the end of the ribbon, resting
her elbows on the desk, as she stared wonderingly
at the new pupil. When Monsieur Dufarge began
to speak to Sara, she looked a little frightened;
and when Sara stepped forward and, looking at him with
the innocent, appealing eyes, answered him, without
any warning, in French, the fat little girl gave a
startled jump, and grew quite red in her awed amazement.
Having wept hopeless tears for weeks in her efforts
to remember that “la mere” meant “the
mother,” and “le pere,” “the
father,”— when one spoke sensible
English—it was almost too much for her
suddenly to find herself listening to a child her
own age who seemed not only quite familiar with these
words, but apparently knew any number of others, and
could mix them up with verbs as if they were mere
trifles.
She stared so hard and bit the ribbon
on her pigtail so fast that she attracted the attention
of Miss Minchin, who, feeling extremely cross at the
moment, immediately pounced upon her.
“Miss St. John!” she exclaimed
severely. “What do you mean by such conduct?
Remove your elbows! Take your ribbon out of
your mouth! Sit up at once!”
Upon which Miss St. John gave another
jump, and when Lavinia and Jessie tittered she became
redder than ever—so red, indeed, that she
almost looked as if tears were coming into her poor,
dull, childish eyes; and Sara saw her and was so sorry
for her that she began rather to like her and want
to be her friend. It was a way of hers always
to want to spring into any fray in which someone was
made uncomfortable or unhappy.
“If Sara had been a boy and
lived a few centuries ago,” her father used
to say, “she would have gone about the country
with her sword drawn, rescuing and defending everyone
in distress. She always wants to fight when she
sees people in trouble.”
So she took rather a fancy to fat,
slow, little Miss St. John, and kept glancing toward
her through the morning. She saw that lessons
were no easy matter to her, and that there was no danger
of her ever being spoiled by being treated as a show
pupil. Her French lesson was a pathetic thing.
Her pronunciation made even Monsieur Dufarge smile
in spite of himself, and Lavinia and Jessie and the
more fortunate girls either giggled or looked at her
in wondering disdain. But Sara did not laugh.
She tried to look as if she did not hear when Miss
St. John called “le bon pain,” “lee
bong pang.” She had a fine, hot little
temper of her own, and it made her feel rather savage
when she heard the titters and saw the poor, stupid,
distressed child’s face.
“It isn’t funny, really,”
she said between her teeth, as she bent over her book.
“They ought not to laugh.”
When lessons were over and the pupils
gathered together in groups to talk, Sara looked for
Miss St. John, and finding her bundled rather disconsolately
in a window-seat, she walked over to her and spoke.
She only said the kind of thing little girls always
say to each other by way of beginning an acquaintance,
but there was something friendly about Sara, and people
always felt it.
“What is your name?” she said.
To explain Miss St. John’s amazement
one must recall that a new pupil is, for a short time,
a somewhat uncertain thing; and of this new pupil
the entire school had talked the night before until
it fell asleep quite exhausted by excitement and contradictory
stories. A new pupil with a carriage and a pony
and a maid, and a voyage from India to discuss, was
not an ordinary acquaintance.
“My name’s Ermengarde St. John,”
she answered.
“Mine is Sara Crewe,”
said Sara. “Yours is very pretty.
It sounds like a story book.”
“Do you like it?” fluttered
Ermengarde. “I—I like yours.”
Miss St. John’s chief trouble
in life was that she had a clever father. Sometimes
this seemed to her a dreadful calamity. If you
have a father who knows everything, who speaks seven
or eight languages, and has thousands of volumes which
he has apparently learned by heart, he frequently
expects you to be familiar with the contents of your
lesson books at least; and it is not improbable that
he will feel you ought to be able to remember a few
incidents of history and to write a French exercise.
Ermengarde was a severe trial to Mr. St. John.
He could not understand how a child of his could be
a notably and unmistakably dull creature who never
shone in anything.
“Good heavens!” he had
said more than once, as he stared at her, “there
are times when I think she is as stupid as her Aunt
Eliza!”
If her Aunt Eliza had been slow to
learn and quick to forget a thing entirely when she
had learned it, Ermengarde was strikingly like her.
She was the monumental dunce of the school, and it
could not be denied.
“She must be made to learn,”
her father said to Miss Minchin.
Consequently Ermengarde spent the
greater part of her life in disgrace or in tears.
She learned things and forgot them; or, if she remembered
them, she did not understand them. So it was
natural that, having made Sara’s acquaintance,
she should sit and stare at her with profound admiration.
“You can speak French, can’t
you?” she said respectfully.
Sara got on to the window-seat, which
was a big, deep one, and, tucking up her feet, sat
with her hands clasped round her knees.
“I can speak it because I have
heard it all my life,” she answered. “You
could speak it if you had always heard it.”
“Oh, no, I couldn’t,”
said Ermengarde. “I never could speak
it!”
“Why?” inquired Sara, curiously.
Ermengarde shook her head so that the pigtail wobbled.
“You heard me just now,”
she said. “I’m always like that.
I can’t say the words. They’re
so queer.”
She paused a moment, and then added
with a touch of awe in her voice, “You are clever,
aren’t you?”
Sara looked out of the window into
the dingy square, where the sparrows were hopping
and twittering on the wet, iron railings and the sooty
branches of the trees. She reflected a few moments.
She had heard it said very often that she was “clever,”
and she wondered if she was—and if
she was, how it had happened.
“I don’t know,”
she said. “I can’t tell.”
Then, seeing a mournful look on the round, chubby
face, she gave a little laugh and changed the subject.
“Would you like to see Emily?” she inquired.
“Who is Emily?” Ermengarde
asked, just as Miss Minchin had done.
“Come up to my room and see,”
said Sara, holding out her hand.
They jumped down from the window-seat
together, and went upstairs.
“Is it true,” Ermengarde
whispered, as they went through the hall—”is it
true that you have a playroom all to yourself?”
“Yes,” Sara answered.
“Papa asked Miss Minchin to let me have one,
because—well, it was because when I play
I make up stories and tell them to myself, and I don’t
like people to hear me. It spoils it if I think
people listen.”
They had reached the passage leading
to Sara’s room by this time, and Ermengarde
stopped short, staring, and quite losing her breath.
“You make up stories!”
she gasped. “Can you do that—as
well as speak French? Can you?”
Sara looked at her in simple surprise.
“Why, anyone can make up things,”
she said. “Have you never tried?”
She put her hand warningly on Ermengarde’s.
“Let us go very quietly to the
door,” she whispered, “and then I will
open it quite suddenly; perhaps we may catch her.”
She was half laughing, but there was
a touch of mysterious hope in her eyes which fascinated
Ermengarde, though she had not the remotest idea what
it meant, or whom it was she wanted to “catch,”
or why she wanted to catch her. Whatsoever she
meant, Ermengarde was sure it was something delightfully
exciting. So, quite thrilled with expectation,
she followed her on tiptoe along the passage.
They made not the least noise until they reached the
door. Then Sara suddenly turned the handle, and
threw it wide open. Its opening revealed the
room quite neat and quiet, a fire gently burning in
the grate, and a wonderful doll sitting in a chair
by it, apparently reading a book.
“Oh, she got back to her seat
before we could see her!” Sara explained.
“Of course they always do. They are as
quick as lightning.”
Ermengarde looked from her to the
doll and back again.
“Can she—walk?” she asked breathlessly.
“Yes,” answered Sara.
“At least I believe she can. At least
I pretend I believe she can. And that makes
it seem as if it were true. Have you never pretended
things?”
“No,” said Ermengarde.
“Never. I—tell me about it.”
She was so bewitched by this odd,
new companion that she actually stared at Sara instead
of at Emily—notwithstanding that Emily
was the most attractive doll person she had ever seen.
“Let us sit down,” said
Sara, “and I will tell you. It’s
so easy that when you begin you can’t stop.
You just go on and on doing it always. And
it’s beautiful. Emily, you must listen.
This is Ermengarde St. John, Emily. Ermengarde,
this is Emily. Would you like to hold her?”
“Oh, may I?” said Ermengarde.
“May I, really? She is beautiful!”
And Emily was put into her arms.
Never in her dull, short life had
Miss St. John dreamed of such an hour as the one she
spent with the queer new pupil before they heard the
lunch-bell ring and were obliged to go downstairs.
Sara sat upon the hearth-rug and told
her strange things. She sat rather huddled up,
and her green eyes shone and her cheeks flushed.
She told stories of the voyage, and stories of India;
but what fascinated Ermengarde the most was her fancy
about the dolls who walked and talked, and who could
do anything they chose when the human beings were
out of the room, but who must keep their powers a
secret and so flew back to their places “like
lightning” when people returned to the room.
“We couldn’t do it,”
said Sara, seriously. “You see, it’s
a kind of magic.”
Once, when she was relating the story
of the search for Emily, Ermengarde saw her face suddenly
change. A cloud seemed to pass over it and put
out the light in her shining eyes. She drew her
breath in so sharply that it made a funny, sad little
sound, and then she shut her lips and held them tightly
closed, as if she was determined either to do or not
to do something. Ermengarde had an idea that
if she had been like any other little girl, she might
have suddenly burst out sobbing and crying. But
she did not.
“Have you a—a pain?” Ermengarde
ventured.
“Yes,” Sara answered,
after a moment’s silence. “But it
is not in my body.” Then she added something
in a low voice which she tried to keep quite steady,
and it was this: “Do you love your father
more than anything else in all the whole world?”
Ermengarde’s mouth fell open
a little. She knew that it would be far from
behaving like a respectable child at a select seminary
to say that it had never occurred to you that you could
love your father, that you would do anything desperate
to avoid being left alone in his society for ten minutes.
She was, indeed, greatly embarrassed.
“I—I scarcely ever
see him,” she stammered. “He is always
in the library—reading things.”
“I love mine more than all the
world ten times over,” Sara said. “That
is what my pain is. He has gone away.”
She put her head quietly down on her
little, huddled-up knees, and sat very still for a
few minutes.
“She’s going to cry out
loud,” thought Ermengarde, fearfully.
But she did not. Her short,
black locks tumbled about her ears, and she sat still.
Then she spoke without lifting her head.
“I promised him I would bear
it,” she said. “And I will.
You have to bear things. Think what soldiers
bear! Papa is a soldier. If there was a
war he would have to bear marching and thirstiness
and, perhaps, deep wounds. And he would never
say a word—not one word.”
Ermengarde could only gaze at her,
but she felt that she was beginning to adore her.
She was so wonderful and different from anyone else.
Presently, she lifted her face and
shook back her black locks, with a queer little smile.
“If I go on talking and talking,”
she said, “and telling you things about pretending,
I shall bear it better. You don’t forget,
but you bear it better.”
Ermengarde did not know why a lump
came into her throat and her eyes felt as if tears
were in them.
“Lavinia and Jessie are `best
friends,’” she said rather huskily.
“I wish we could be `best friends.’
Would you have me for yours? You’re clever,
and I’m the stupidest child in the school, but
I— oh, I do so like you!”
“I’m glad of that,”
said Sara. “It makes you thankful when
you are liked. Yes. We will be friends.
And I’ll tell you what”— a
sudden gleam lighting her face—“I
can help you with your French lessons.”
4
Lottie
If Sara had been a different kind
of child, the life she led at Miss Minchin’s
Select Seminary for the next few years would not have
been at all good for her. She was treated more
as if she were a distinguished guest at the establishment
than as if she were a mere little girl. If she
had been a self-opinionated, domineering child, she
might have become disagreeable enough to be unbearable
through being so much indulged and flattered.
If she had been an indolent child, she would have
learned nothing. Privately Miss Minchin disliked
her, but she was far too worldly a woman to do or
say anything which might make such a desirable pupil
wish to leave her school. She knew quite well
that if Sara wrote to her papa to tell him she was
uncomfortable or unhappy, Captain Crewe would remove
her at once. Miss Minchin’s opinion was
that if a child were continually praised and never
forbidden to do what she liked, she would be sure
to be fond of the place where she was so treated.
Accordingly, Sara was praised for her quickness at
her lessons, for her good manners, for her amiability
to her fellow pupils, for her generosity if she gave
sixpence to a beggar out of her full little purse;
the simplest thing she did was treated as if it were
a virtue, and if she had not had a disposition and
a clever little brain, she might have been a very
self-satisfied young person. But the clever little
brain told her a great many sensible and true things
about herself and her circumstances, and now and then
she talked these things over to Ermengarde as time
went on.
“Things happen to people by
accident,” she used to say. “A lot
of nice accidents have happened to me. It just
happened that I always liked lessons and books,
and could remember things when I learned them.
It just happened that I was born with a father who
was beautiful and nice and clever, and could give me
everything I liked. Perhaps I have not really
a good temper at all, but if you have everything you
want and everyone is kind to you, how can you help
but be good-tempered? I don’t know”—looking
quite serious—“how I shall ever find
out whether I am really a nice child or a horrid one.
Perhaps I’m a hideous child, and no one
will ever know, just because I never have any trials.”
“Lavinia has no trials,”
said Ermengarde, stolidly, “and she is horrid
enough.”
Sara rubbed the end of her little
nose reflectively, as she thought the matter over.
“Well,” she said at last,
“perhaps—perhaps that is because
Lavinia is growing.” This was the result
of a charitable recollection of having heard Miss
Amelia say that Lavinia was growing so fast that she
believed it affected her health and temper.
Lavinia, in fact, was spiteful.
She was inordinately jealous of Sara. Until
the new pupil’s arrival, she had felt herself
the leader in the school. She had led because
she was capable of making herself extremely disagreeable
if the others did not follow her. She domineered
over the little children, and assumed grand airs with
those big enough to be her companions. She was
rather pretty, and had been the best-dressed pupil
in the procession when the Select Seminary walked
out two by two, until Sara’s velvet coats and
sable muffs appeared, combined with drooping ostrich
feathers, and were led by Miss Minchin at the head
of the line. This, at the beginning, had been
bitter enough; but as time went on it became apparent
that Sara was a leader, too, and not because she could
make herself disagreeable, but because she never did.
“There’s one thing about
Sara Crewe,” Jessie had enraged her “best
friend” by saying honestly, “she’s
never `grand’ about herself the least bit, and
you know she might be, Lavvie. I believe I couldn’t
help being—just a little—if I
had so many fine things and was made such a fuss over.
It’s disgusting, the way Miss Minchin shows
her off when parents come.”
“`Dear Sara must come into the
drawing room and talk to Mrs. Musgrave about India,’”
mimicked Lavinia, in her most highly flavored imitation
of Miss Minchin. “`Dear Sara must speak French
to Lady Pitkin. Her accent is so perfect.’
She didn’t learn her French at the Seminary,
at any rate. And there’s nothing so clever
in her knowing it. She says herself she didn’t
learn it at all. She just picked it up, because
she always heard her papa speak it. And, as
to her papa, there is nothing so grand in being an
Indian officer.”
“Well,” said Jessie, slowly,
“he’s killed tigers. He killed the
one in the skin Sara has in her room. That’s
why she likes it so. She lies on it and strokes
its head, and talks to it as if it was a cat.”
“She’s always doing something
silly,” snapped Lavinia. “My mamma
says that way of hers of pretending things is silly.
She says she will grow up eccentric.”
It was quite true that Sara was never
“grand.” She was a friendly little
soul, and shared her privileges and belongings with
a free hand. The little ones, who were accustomed
to being disdained and ordered out of the way by mature
ladies aged ten and twelve, were never made to cry
by this most envied of them all. She was a motherly
young person, and when people fell down and scraped
their knees, she ran and helped them up and patted
them, or found in her pocket a bonbon or some other
article of a soothing nature. She never pushed
them out of her way or alluded to their years as a
humiliation and a blot upon their small characters.
“If you are four you are four,”
she said severely to Lavinia on an occasion of her
having—it must be confessed—slapped
Lottie and called her “a brat;” “but
you will be five next year, and six the year after
that. And,” opening large, convicting eyes,
“it takes sixteen years to make you twenty.”
“Dear me,” said Lavinia,
“how we can calculate!” In fact, it was
not to be denied that sixteen and four made twenty—and
twenty was an age the most daring were scarcely bold
enough to dream of.
So the younger children adored Sara.
More than once she had been known to have a tea party,
made up of these despised ones, in her own room.
And Emily had been played with, and Emily’s own
tea service used— the one with cups which
held quite a lot of much-sweetened weak tea and had
blue flowers on them. No one had seen such a
very real doll’s tea set before. From that
afternoon Sara was regarded as a goddess and a queen
by the entire alphabet class.
Lottle Legh worshipped her to such
an extent that if Sara had not been a motherly person,
she would have found her tiresome. Lottie had
been sent to school by a rather flighty young papa
who could not imagine what else to do with her.
Her young mother had died, and as the child had been
treated like a favorite doll or a very spoiled pet
monkey or lap dog ever since the first hour of her
life, she was a very appalling little creature.
When she wanted anything or did not want anything
she wept and howled; and, as she always wanted the
things she could not have, and did not want the things
that were best for her, her shrill little voice was
usually to be heard uplifted in wails in one part of
the house or another.
Her strongest weapon was that in some
mysterious way she had found out that a very small
girl who had lost her mother was a person who ought
to be pitied and made much of. She had probably
heard some grown-up people talking her over in the
early days, after her mother’s death. So
it became her habit to make great use of this knowledge.
The first time Sara took her in charge
was one morning when, on passing a sitting room, she
heard both Miss Minchin and Miss Amelia trying to
suppress the angry wails of some child who, evidently,
refused to be silenced. She refused so strenuously
indeed that Miss Minchin was obliged to almost shout—in
a stately and severe manner— to make herself
heard.
“What is she crying for?” she almost
yelled.
“Oh—oh—oh!” Sara
heard; “I haven’t got any mam—ma-a!”
“Oh, Lottie!” screamed
Miss Amelia. “Do stop, darling! Don’t
cry! Please don’t!”
“Oh! Oh! Oh!
Oh! Oh!” Lottle howled tempestuously.
“Haven’t—got—any—mam—ma-a!”
“She ought to be whipped,”
Miss Minchin proclaimed. “You shall
be whipped, you naughty child!”
Lottle wailed more loudly than ever.
Miss Amelia began to cry. Miss Minchin’s
voice rose until it almost thundered, then suddenly
she sprang up from her chair in impotent indignation
and flounced out of the room, leaving Miss Amelia
to arrange the matter.
Sara had paused in the hall, wondering
if she ought to go into the room, because she had
recently begun a friendly acquaintance with Lottie
and might be able to quiet her. When Miss Minchin
came out and saw her, she looked rather annoyed.
She realized that her voice, as heard from inside
the room, could not have sounded either dignified
or amiable.
“Oh, Sara!” she exclaimed,
endeavoring to produce a suitable smile.
“I stopped,” explained
Sara, “because I knew it was Lottie—
and I thought, perhaps—just perhaps, I
could make her be quiet. May I try, Miss Minchin?”
“If you can, you are a clever
child,” answered Miss Minchin, drawing in her
mouth sharply. Then, seeing that Sara looked
slightly chilled by her asperity, she changed her manner.
“But you are clever in everything,” she
said in her approving way. “I dare say
you can manage her. Go in.” And she
left her.
When Sara entered the room, Lottie
was lying upon the floor, screaming and kicking her
small fat legs violently, and Miss Amelia was bending
over her in consternation and despair, looking quite
red and damp with heat. Lottie had always found,
when in her own nursery at home, that kicking and
screaming would always be quieted by any means she
insisted on. Poor plump Miss Amelia was trying
first one method, and then another.
“Poor darling,” she said
one moment, “I know you haven’t any mamma,
poor—” Then in quite another tone,
“If you don’t stop, Lottie, I will shake
you. Poor little angel! There—!
You wicked, bad, detestable child, I will smack you!
I will!”
Sara went to them quietly. She
did not know at all what she was going to do, but
she had a vague inward conviction that it would be
better not to say such different kinds of things quite
so helplessly and excitedly.
“Miss Amelia,” she said
in a low voice, “Miss Minchin says I may try
to make her stop—may I?”
Miss Amelia turned and looked at her
hopelessly. “Oh, do you think you
can?” she gasped.
“I don’t know whether
I can”, answered Sara, still in her half-whisper;
“but I will try.”
Miss Amelia stumbled up from her knees
with a heavy sigh, and Lottie’s fat little legs
kicked as hard as ever.
“If you will steal out of the
room,” said Sara, “I will stay with her.”
“Oh, Sara!” almost whimpered
Miss Amelia. “We never had such a dreadful
child before. I don’t believe we can keep
her.”
But she crept out of the room, and
was very much relieved to find an excuse for doing
it.
Sara stood by the howling furious
child for a few moments, and looked down at her without
saying anything. Then she sat down flat on the
floor beside her and waited. Except for Lottie’s
angry screams, the room was quite quiet. This
was a new state of affairs for little Miss Legh, who
was accustomed, when she screamed, to hear other people
protest and implore and command and coax by turns.
To lie and kick and shriek, and find the only person
near you not seeming to mind in the least, attracted
her attention. She opened her tight-shut streaming
eyes to see who this person was. And it was only
another little girl. But it was the one who
owned Emily and all the nice things. And she
was looking at her steadily and as if she was merely
thinking. Having paused for a few seconds to
find this out, Lottie thought she must begin again,
but the quiet of the room and of Sara’s odd,
interested face made her first howl rather half-hearted.
“I—haven’t—any—ma—ma—ma-a!”
she announced; but her voice was not so strong.
Sara looked at her still more steadily,
but with a sort of understanding in her eyes.
“Neither have I,” she said.
This was so unexpected that it was
astounding. Lottie actually dropped her legs,
gave a wriggle, and lay and stared. A new idea
will stop a crying child when nothing else will.
Also it was true that while Lottie disliked Miss
Minchin, who was cross, and Miss Amelia, who was foolishly
indulgent, she rather liked Sara, little as she knew
her. She did not want to give up her grievance,
but her thoughts were distracted from it, so she wriggled
again, and, after a sulky sob, said, “Where is
she?”
Sara paused a moment. Because
she had been told that her mamma was in heaven, she
had thought a great deal about the matter, and her
thoughts had not been quite like those of other people.
“She went to heaven,”
she said. “But I am sure she comes out
sometimes to see me—though I don’t
see her. So does yours. Perhaps they can
both see us now. Perhaps they are both in this
room.”
Lottle sat bolt upright, and looked
about her. She was a pretty, little, curly-headed
creature, and her round eyes were like wet forget-me-nots.
If her mamma had seen her during the last half-hour,
she might not have thought her the kind of child who
ought to be related to an angel.
Sara went on talking. Perhaps
some people might think that what she said was rather
like a fairy story, but it was all so real to her
own imagination that Lottie began to listen in spite
of herself. She had been told that her mamma
had wings and a crown, and she had been shown pictures
of ladies in beautiful white nightgowns, who were
said to be angels. But Sara seemed to be telling
a real story about a lovely country where real people
were.
“There are fields and fields
of flowers,” she said, forgetting herself, as
usual, when she began, and talking rather as if she
were in a dream, “fields and fields of lilies—and
when the soft wind blows over them it wafts the scent
of them into the air—and everybody always
breathes it, because the soft wind is always blowing.
And little children run about in the lily fields and
gather armfuls of them, and laugh and make little wreaths.
And the streets are shining. And people are
never tired, however far they walk. They can
float anywhere they like. And there are walls
made of pearl and gold all round the city, but they
are low enough for the people to go and lean on them,
and look down onto the earth and smile, and send beautiful
messages.”
Whatsoever story she had begun to
tell, Lottie would, no doubt, have stopped crying,
and been fascinated into listening; but there was
no denying that this story was prettier than most
others. She dragged herself close to Sara, and
drank in every word until the end came—far
too soon. When it did come, she was so sorry
that she put up her lip ominously.
“I want to go there,”
she cried. “I—haven’t
any mamma in this school.”
Sara saw the danger signal, and came
out of her dream. She took hold of the chubby
hand and pulled her close to her side with a coaxing
little laugh.
“I will be your mamma,”
she said. “We will play that you are my
little girl. And Emily shall be your sister.”
Lottie’s dimples all began to show themselves.
“Shall she?” she said.
“Yes,” answered Sara,
jumping to her feet. “Let us go and tell
her. And then I will wash your face and brush
your hair.”
To which Lottie agreed quite cheerfully,
and trotted out of the room and upstairs with her,
without seeming even to remember that the whole of
the last hour’s tragedy had been caused by the
fact that she had refused to be washed and brushed
for lunch and Miss Minchin had been called in to use
her majestic authority.
And from that time Sara was an adopted mother.
5
Becky
Of course the greatest power Sara
possessed and the one which gained her even more followers
than her luxuries and the fact that she was “the
show pupil,” the power that Lavinia and certain
other girls were most envious of, and at the same time
most fascinated by in spite of themselves, was her
power of telling stories and of making everything
she talked about seem like a story, whether it was
one or not.
Anyone who has been at school with
a teller of stories knows what the wonder means—how
he or she is followed about and besought in a whisper
to relate romances; how groups gather round and hang
on the outskirts of the favored party in the hope of
being allowed to join in and listen. Sara not
only could tell stories, but she adored telling them.
When she sat or stood in the midst of a circle and
began to invent wonderful things, her green eyes grew
big and shining, her cheeks flushed, and, without
knowing that she was doing it, she began to act and
made what she told lovely or alarming by the raising
or dropping of her voice, the bend and sway of her
slim body, and the dramatic movement of her hands.
She forgot that she was talking to listening children;
she saw and lived with the fairy folk, or the kings
and queens and beautiful ladies, whose adventures
she was narrating. Sometimes when she had finished
her story, she was quite out of breath with excitement,
and would lay her hand on her thin, little, quick-rising
chest, and half laugh as if at herself.
“When I am telling it,”
she would say, “it doesn’t seem as if it
was only made up. It seems more real than you
are—more real than the schoolroom.
I feel as if I were all the people in the story—one
after the other. It is queer.”
She had been at Miss Minchin’s
school about two years when, one foggy winter’s
afternoon, as she was getting out of her carriage,
comfortably wrapped up in her warmest velvets and furs
and looking very much grander than she knew, she caught
sight, as she crossed the pavement, of a dingy little
figure standing on the area steps, and stretching
its neck so that its wide-open eyes might peer at
her through the railings. Something in the eagerness
and timidity of the smudgy face made her look at it,
and when she looked she smiled because it was her way
to smile at people.
But the owner of the smudgy face and
the wide-open eyes evidently was afraid that she ought
not to have been caught looking at pupils of importance.
She dodged out of sight like a jack-in-the-box and
scurried back into the kitchen, disappearing so suddenly
that if she had not been such a poor little forlorn
thing, Sara would have laughed in spite of herself.
That very evening, as Sara was sitting in the midst
of a group of listeners in a corner of the schoolroom
telling one of her stories, the very same figure timidly
entered the room, carrying a coal box much too heavy
for her, and knelt down upon the hearth rug to replenish
the fire and sweep up the ashes.
She was cleaner than she had been
when she peeped through the area railings, but she
looked just as frightened. She was evidently
afraid to look at the children or seem to be listening.
She put on pieces of coal cautiously with her fingers
so that she might make no disturbing noise, and she
swept about the fire irons very softly. But
Sara saw in two minutes that she was deeply interested
in what was going on, and that she was doing her work
slowly in the hope of catching a word here and there.
And realizing this, she raised her voice and spoke
more clearly.
“The Mermaids swam softly about
in the crystal-green water, and dragged after them
a fishing-net woven of deep-sea pearls,” she
said. “The Princess sat on the white rock
and watched them.”
It was a wonderful story about a princess
who was loved by a Prince Merman, and went to live
with him in shining caves under the sea.
The small drudge before the grate
swept the hearth once and then swept it again.
Having done it twice, she did it three times; and,
as she was doing it the third time, the sound of the
story so lured her to listen that she fell under the
spell and actually forgot that she had no right to
listen at all, and also forgot everything else.
She sat down upon her heels as she knelt on the hearth
rug, and the brush hung idly in her fingers.
The voice of the storyteller went on and drew her
with it into winding grottos under the sea, glowing
with soft, clear blue light, and paved with pure golden
sands. Strange sea flowers and grasses waved
about her, and far away faint singing and music echoed.
The hearth brush fell from the work-roughened
hand, and Lavinia Herbert looked round.
“That girl has been listening,” she said.
The culprit snatched up her brush,
and scrambled to her feet. She caught at the
coal box and simply scuttled out of the room like
a frightened rabbit.
Sara felt rather hot-tempered.
“I knew she was listening,” she said.
“Why shouldn’t she?”
Lavinia tossed her head with great elegance.
“Well,” she remarked,
“I do not know whether your mamma would like
you to tell stories to servant girls, but I know my
mamma wouldn’t like me to do it.”
“My mamma!” said Sara,
looking odd. “I don’t believe she
would mind in the least. She knows that stories
belong to everybody.”
“I thought,” retorted
Lavinia, in severe recollection, “that your
mamma was dead. How can she know things?”
“Do you think she doesn’t
know things?” said Sara, in her stern little
voice. Sometimes she had a rather stern little
voice.
“Sara’s mamma knows everything,”
piped in Lottie. “So does my mamma—’cept
Sara is my mamma at Miss Minchin’s—my
other one knows everything. The streets are
shining, and there are fields and fields of lilies,
and everybody gathers them. Sara tells me when
she puts me to bed.”
“You wicked thing,” said
Lavinia, turning on Sara; “making fairy stories
about heaven.”
“There are much more splendid
stories in Revelation,” returned Sara.
“Just look and see! How do you know mine
are fairy stories? But I can tell you”—with
a fine bit of unheavenly temper—“you
will never find out whether they are or not if you’re
not kinder to people than you are now. Come along,
Lottie.” And she marched out of the room,
rather hoping that she might see the little servant
again somewhere, but she found no trace of her when
she got into the hall.
“Who is that little girl who
makes the fires?” she asked Mariette that night.
Mariette broke forth into a flow of description.
Ah, indeed, Mademoiselle Sara might
well ask. She was a forlorn little thing who
had just taken the place of scullery maid—
though, as to being scullery maid, she was everything
else besides. She blacked boots and grates, and
carried heavy coal-scuttles up and down stairs, and
scrubbed floors and cleaned windows, and was ordered
about by everybody. She was fourteen years old,
but was so stunted in growth that she looked about
twelve. In truth, Mariette was sorry for her.
She was so timid that if one chanced to speak to
her it appeared as if her poor, frightened eyes would
jump out of her head.
“What is her name?” asked
Sara, who had sat by the table, with her chin on her
hands, as she listened absorbedly to the recital.
Her name was Becky. Mariette
heard everyone below-stairs calling, “Becky,
do this,” and “Becky, do that,” every
five minutes in the day.
Sara sat and looked into the fire,
reflecting on Becky for some time after Mariette left
her. She made up a story of which Becky was
the ill-used heroine. She thought she looked
as if she had never had quite enough to eat.
Her very eyes were hungry. She hoped she should
see her again, but though she caught sight of her
carrying things up or down stairs on several occasions,
she always seemed in such a hurry and so afraid of
being seen that it was impossible to speak to her.
But a few weeks later, on another
foggy afternoon, when she entered her sitting room
she found herself confronting a rather pathetic picture.
In her own special and pet easy-chair before the
bright fire, Becky—with a coal smudge on
her nose and several on her apron, with her poor little
cap hanging half off her head, and an empty coal box
on the floor near her—sat fast asleep,
tired out beyond even the endurance of her hard-working
young body. She had been sent up to put the bedrooms
in order for the evening. There were a great
many of them, and she had been running about all day.
Sara’s rooms she had saved until the last.
They were not like the other rooms, which were plain
and bare. Ordinary pupils were expected to be
satisfied with mere necessaries. Sara’s
comfortable sitting room seemed a bower of luxury
to the scullery maid, though it was, in fact, merely
a nice, bright little room. But there were pictures
and books in it, and curious things from India; there
was a sofa and the low, soft chair; Emily sat in a
chair of her own, with the air of a presiding goddess,
and there was always a glowing fire and a polished
grate. Becky saved it until the end of her afternoon’s
work, because it rested her to go into it, and she
always hoped to snatch a few minutes to sit down in
the soft chair and look about her, and think about
the wonderful good fortune of the child who owned
such surroundings and who went out on the cold days
in beautiful hats and coats one tried to catch a glimpse
of through the area railing.
On this afternoon, when she had sat
down, the sensation of relief to her short, aching
legs had been so wonderful and delightful that it
had seemed to soothe her whole body, and the glow
of warmth and comfort from the fire had crept over
her like a spell, until, as she looked at the red
coals, a tired, slow smile stole over her smudged
face, her head nodded forward without her being aware
of it, her eyes drooped, and she fell fast asleep.
She had really been only about ten minutes in the
room when Sara entered, but she was in as deep a sleep
as if she had been, like the Sleeping Beauty, slumbering
for a hundred years. But she did not look—poor
Becky— like a Sleeping Beauty at all.
She looked only like an ugly, stunted, worn-out little
scullery drudge.
Sara seemed as much unlike her as
if she were a creature from another world.
On this particular afternoon she had
been taking her dancing lesson, and the afternoon
on which the dancing master appeared was rather a
grand occasion at the seminary, though it occurred
every week. The pupils were attired in their prettiest
frocks, and as Sara danced particularly well, she
was very much brought forward, and Mariette was requested
to make her as diaphanous and fine as possible.
Today a frock the color of a rose
had been put on her, and Mariette had bought some
real buds and made her a wreath to wear on her black
locks. She had been learning a new, delightful
dance in which she had been skimming and flying about
the room, like a large rose-colored butterfly, and
the enjoyment and exercise had brought a brilliant,
happy glow into her face.
When she entered the room, she floated
in with a few of the butterfly steps—and
there sat Becky, nodding her cap sideways off her
head.
“Oh!” cried Sara, softly,
when she saw her. “That poor thing!”
It did not occur to her to feel cross
at finding her pet chair occupied by the small, dingy
figure. To tell the truth, she was quite glad
to find it there. When the ill-used heroine of
her story wakened, she could talk to her. She
crept toward her quietly, and stood looking at her.
Becky gave a little snore.
“I wish she’d waken herself,”
Sara said. “I don’t like to waken
her. But Miss Minchin would be cross if she found
out. I’ll just wait a few minutes.”
She took a seat on the edge of the
table, and sat swinging her slim, rose-colored legs,
and wondering what it would be best to do. Miss
Amelia might come in at any moment, and if she did,
Becky would be sure to be scolded.
“But she is so tired,”
she thought. “She is so tired!”
A piece of flaming coal ended her
perplexity for her that very moment. It broke
off from a large lump and fell on to the fender.
Becky started, and opened her eyes with a frightened
gasp. She did not know she had fallen asleep.
She had only sat down for one moment and felt the
beautiful glow—and here she found herself
staring in wild alarm at the wonderful pupil, who
sat perched quite near her, like a rose-colored fairy,
with interested eyes.
She sprang up and clutched at her
cap. She felt it dangling over her ear, and
tried wildly to put it straight. Oh, she had
got herself into trouble now with a vengeance!
To have impudently fallen asleep on such a young
lady’s chair! She would be turned out
of doors without wages.
She made a sound like a big breathless sob.
“Oh, miss! Oh, miss!”
she stuttered. “I arst yer pardon, miss!
Oh, I do, miss!”
Sara jumped down, and came quite close to her.
“Don’t be frightened,”
she said, quite as if she had been speaking to a little
girl like herself. “It doesn’t matter
the least bit.”
“I didn’t go to do it,
miss,” protested Becky. “It was the
warm fire—an’ me bein’ so tired.
It—it wasn’t impertience!”
Sara broke into a friendly little
laugh, and put her hand on her shoulder.
“You were tired,” she
said; “you could not help it. You are not
really awake yet.”
How poor Becky stared at her!
In fact, she had never heard such a nice, friendly
sound in anyone’s voice before. She was
used to being ordered about and scolded, and having
her ears boxed. And this one—in her
rose-colored dancing afternoon splendor—was
looking at her as if she were not a culprit at all—as
if she had a right to be tired—even to
fall asleep! The touch of the soft, slim little
paw on her shoulder was the most amazing thing she
had ever known.
“Ain’t—ain’t
yer angry, miss?” she gasped. “Ain’t
yer goin’ to tell the missus?”
“No,” cried out Sara. “Of
course I’m not.”
The woeful fright in the coal-smutted
face made her suddenly so sorry that she could scarcely
bear it. One of her queer thoughts rushed into
her mind. She put her hand against Becky’s
cheek.
“Why,” she said, “we
are just the same—I am only a little girl
like you. It’s just an accident that I am
not you, and you are not me!”
Becky did not understand in the least.
Her mind could not grasp such amazing thoughts, and
“an accident” meant to her a calamity
in which some one was run over or fell off a ladder
and was carried to “the ’orspital.”
“A’ accident, miss,”
she fluttered respectfully. “Is it?”
“Yes,” Sara answered,
and she looked at her dreamily for a moment.
But the next she spoke in a different tone. She
realized that Becky did not know what she meant.
“Have you done your work?”
she asked. “Dare you stay here a few minutes?”
Becky lost her breath again.
“Here, miss? Me?”
Sara ran to the door, opened it, and looked out and
listened.
“No one is anywhere about,”
she explained. “If your bedrooms are finished,
perhaps you might stay a tiny while. I thought—
perhaps—you might like a piece of cake.”
The next ten minutes seemed to Becky
like a sort of delirium. Sara opened a cupboard,
and gave her a thick slice of cake. She seemed
to rejoice when it was devoured in hungry bites.
She talked and asked questions, and laughed until
Becky’s fears actually began to calm themselves,
and she once or twice gathered boldness enough to
ask a question or so herself, daring as she felt it
to be.
“Is that—”
she ventured, looking longingly at the rose-colored
frock. And she asked it almost in a whisper.
“Is that there your best?”
“It is one of my dancing-frocks,”
answered Sara. “I like it, don’t
you?”
For a few seconds Becky was almost
speechless with admiration. Then she said in
an awed voice, “Onct I see a princess.
I was standin’ in the street with the crowd
outside Covin’ Garden, watchin’ the swells
go inter the operer. An’ there was one
everyone stared at most. They ses to each other,
`That’s the princess.’ She was a
growed-up young lady, but she was pink all over—gownd
an’ cloak, an’ flowers an’ all.
I called her to mind the minnit I see you, sittin’
there on the table, miss. You looked like her.”
“I’ve often thought,”
said Sara, in her reflecting voice, “that I
should like to be a princess; I wonder what it feels
like. I believe I will begin pretending I am
one.”
Becky stared at her admiringly, and,
as before, did not understand her in the least.
She watched her with a sort of adoration. Very
soon Sara left her reflections and turned to her with
a new question.
“Becky,” she said, “weren’t
you listening to that story?”
“Yes, miss,” confessed
Becky, a little alarmed again. “I knowed
I hadn’t orter, but it was that beautiful I—I
couldn’t help it.”
“I liked you to listen to it,”
said Sara. “If you tell stories, you like
nothing so much as to tell them to people who want
to listen. I don’t know why it is.
Would you like to hear the rest?”
Becky lost her breath again.
“Me hear it?” she cried.
“Like as if I was a pupil, miss! All
about the Prince—and the little white Mer-babies
swimming about laughing—with stars in their
hair?”
Sara nodded.
“You haven’t time to hear
it now, I’m afraid,” she said; “but
if you will tell me just what time you come to do
my rooms, I will try to be here and tell you a bit
of it every day until it is finished. It’s
a lovely long one—and I’m always putting
new bits to it.”
“Then,” breathed Becky,
devoutly, “I wouldn’t mind how heavy
the coal boxes was—or what the cook
done to me, if—if I might have that to
think of.”
“You may,” said Sara. “I’ll
tell it all to you.”
When Becky went downstairs, she was
not the same Becky who had staggered up, loaded down
by the weight of the coal scuttle. She had an
extra piece of cake in her pocket, and she had been
fed and warmed, but not only by cake and fire.
Something else had warmed and fed her, and the something
else was Sara.
When she was gone Sara sat on her
favorite perch on the end of her table. Her
feet were on a chair, her elbows on her knees, and
her chin in her hands.
“If I was a princess—a
real princess,” she murmured, “I could
scatter largess to the populace. But even if
I am only a pretend princess, I can invent little
things to do for people. Things like this.
She was just as happy as if it was largess. I’ll
pretend that to do things people like is scattering
largess. I’ve scattered largess.”
6
The Diamond Mines
Not very long after this a very exciting
thing happened. Not only Sara, but the entire
school, found it exciting, and made it the chief subject
of conversation for weeks after it occurred.
In one of his letters Captain Crewe told a most interesting
story. A friend who had been at school with him
when he was a boy had unexpectedly come to see him
in India. He was the owner of a large tract
of land upon which diamonds had been found, and he
was engaged in developing the mines. If all went
as was confidently expected, he would become possessed
of such wealth as it made one dizzy to think of; and
because he was fond of the friend of his school days,
he had given him an opportunity to share in this enormous
fortune by becoming a partner in his scheme.
This, at least, was what Sara gathered from his letters.
It is true that any other business scheme, however
magnificent, would have had but small attraction for
her or for the schoolroom; but “diamond mines”
sounded so like the Arabian Nights that no one could
be indifferent. Sara thought them enchanting,
and painted pictures, for Ermengarde and Lottie, of
labyrinthine passages in the bowels of the earth, where
sparkling stones studded the walls and roofs and ceilings,
and strange, dark men dug them out with heavy picks.
Ermengarde delighted in the story, and Lottie insisted
on its being retold to her every evening. Lavinia
was very spiteful about it, and told Jessie that she
didn’t believe such things as diamond mines
existed.
“My mamma has a diamond ring
which cost forty pounds,” she said. “And
it is not a big one, either. If there were mines
full of diamonds, people would be so rich it would
be ridiculous.”
“Perhaps Sara will be so rich
that she will be ridiculous,” giggled Jessie.
“She’s ridiculous without
being rich,” Lavinia sniffed.
“I believe you hate her,” said Jessie.
“No, I don’t,” snapped
Lavinia. “But I don’t believe in
mines full of diamonds.”
“Well, people have to get them
from somewhere,” said Jessie. “Lavinia,”
with a new giggle, “what do you think Gertrude
says?”
“I don’t know, I’m
sure; and I don’t care if it’s something
more about that everlasting Sara.”
“Well, it is. One of her
`pretends’ is that she is a princess. She
plays it all the time—even in school.
She says it makes her learn her lessons better.
She wants Ermengarde to be one, too, but Ermengarde
says she is too fat.”
“She is too fat,”
said Lavinia. “And Sara is too thin.”
Naturally, Jessie giggled again.
“She says it has nothing to
do with what you look like, or what you have.
It has only to do with what you think of, and
what you do.” “I suppose she
thinks she could be a princess if she was a beggar,”
said Lavinia. “Let us begin to call her
Your Royal Highness.”
Lessons for the day were over, and
they were sitting before the schoolroom fire, enjoying
the time they liked best. It was the time when
Miss Minchin and Miss Amelia were taking their tea
in the sitting room sacred to themselves. At
this hour a great deal of talking was done, and a
great many secrets changed hands, particularly if
the younger pupils behaved themselves well, and did
not squabble or run about noisily, which it must be
confessed they usually did. When they made an
uproar the older girls usually interfered with scolding
and shakes. They were expected to keep order,
and there was danger that if they did not, Miss Minchin
or Miss Amelia would appear and put an end to festivities.
Even as Lavinia spoke the door opened and Sara entered
with Lottie, whose habit was to trot everywhere after
her like a little dog.
“There she is, with that horrid
child!” exclaimed Lavinia in a whisper.
“If she’s so fond of her, why doesn’t
she keep her in her own room? She will begin
howling about something in five minutes.”
It happened that Lottie had been seized
with a sudden desire to play in the schoolroom, and
had begged her adopted parent to come with her.
She joined a group of little ones who were playing
in a corner. Sara curled herself up in the window-seat,
opened a book, and began to read. It was a book
about the French Revolution, and she was soon lost
in a harrowing picture of the prisoners in the Bastille—men
who had spent so many years in dungeons that when
they were dragged out by those who rescued them, their
long, gray hair and beards almost hid their faces,
and they had forgotten that an outside world existed
at all, and were like beings in a dream.
She was so far away from the schoolroom
that it was not agreeable to be dragged back suddenly
by a howl from Lottie. Never did she find anything
so difficult as to keep herself from losing her temper
when she was suddenly disturbed while absorbed in
a book. People who are fond of books know the
feeling of irritation which sweeps over them at such
a moment. The temptation to be unreasonable
and snappish is one not easy to manage.
“It makes me feel as if someone
had hit me,” Sara had told Ermengarde once in
confidence. “And as if I want to hit back.
I have to remember things quickly to keep from saying
something ill-tempered.”
She had to remember things quickly
when she laid her book on the window-seat and jumped
down from her comfortable corner.
Lottie had been sliding across the
schoolroom floor, and, having first irritated Lavinia
and Jessie by making a noise, had ended by falling
down and hurting her fat knee. She was screaming
and dancing up and down in the midst of a group of
friends and enemies, who were alternately coaxing
and scolding her.
“Stop this minute, you cry-baby!
Stop this minute!” Lavinia commanded.
“I’m not a cry-baby .
. . I’m not!” wailed Lottle.
“Sara, Sa— ra!”
“If she doesn’t stop,
Miss Minchin will hear her,” cried Jessie.
“Lottie darling, I’ll give you a penny!”
“I don’t want your penny,”
sobbed Lottie; and she looked down at the fat knee,
and, seeing a drop of blood on it, burst forth again.
Sara flew across the room and, kneeling
down, put her arms round her.
“Now, Lottie,” she said.
“Now, Lottie, you promised Sara.”
“She said I was a cry-baby,” wept Lottie.
Sara patted her, but spoke in the steady voice Lottie
knew.
“But if you cry, you will be
one, Lottie pet. You promised.”
Lottle remembered that she had promised, but she preferred
to lift up her voice.
“I haven’t any mamma,”
she proclaimed. “I haven’t—a
bit—of mamma.”
“Yes, you have,” said
Sara, cheerfully. “Have you forgotten?
Don’t you know that Sara is your mamma?
Don’t you want Sara for your mamma?”
Lottie cuddled up to her with a consoled sniff.
“Come and sit in the window-seat
with me,” Sara went on, “and I’ll
whisper a story to you.”
“Will you?” whimpered
Lottie. “Will you—tell me—about
the diamond mines?”
“The diamond mines?” broke
out Lavinia. “Nasty, little spoiled thing,
I should like to slap her!”
Sara got up quickly on her feet.
It must be remembered that she had been very deeply
absorbed in the book about the Bastille, and she had
had to recall several things rapidly when she realized
that she must go and take care of her adopted child.
She was not an angel, and she was not fond of Lavinia.
“Well,” she said, with
some fire, “I should like to slap you—
but I don’t want to slap you!” restraining
herself. “At least I both want to slap
you—and I should like to slap you—but
I won’t slap you. We are not little
gutter children. We are both old enough to know
better.”
Here was Lavinia’s opportunity.
“Ah, yes, your royal highness,”
she said. “We are princesses, I believe.
At least one of us is. The school ought to be
very fashionable now Miss Minchin has a princess for
a pupil.”
Sara started toward her. She
looked as if she were going to box her ears.
Perhaps she was. Her trick of pretending things
was the joy of her life. She never spoke of
it to girls she was not fond of. Her new “pretend”
about being a princess was very near to her heart,
and she was shy and sensitive about it. She had
meant it to be rather a secret, and here was Lavinia
deriding it before nearly all the school. She
felt the blood rush up into her face and tingle in
her ears. She only just saved herself. If
you were a princess, you did not fly into rages.
Her hand dropped, and she stood quite still a moment.
When she spoke it was in a quiet, steady voice; she
held her head up, and everybody listened to her.
“It’s true,” she
said. “Sometimes I do pretend I am a princess.
I pretend I am a princess, so that I can try and behave
like one.”
Lavinia could not think of exactly
the right thing to say. Several times she had
found that she could not think of a satisfactory reply
when she was dealing with Sara. The reason for
this was that, somehow, the rest always seemed to be
vaguely in sympathy with her opponent. She saw
now that they were pricking up their ears interestedly.
The truth was, they liked princesses, and they all
hoped they might hear something more definite about
this one, and drew nearer Sara accordingly.
Lavinia could only invent one remark,
and it fell rather flat.
“Dear me,” she said, “I
hope, when you ascend the throne, you won’t
forget us!”
“I won’t,” said
Sara, and she did not utter another word, but stood
quite still, and stared at her steadily as she saw
her take Jessie’s arm and turn away.
After this, the girls who were jealous
of her used to speak of her as “Princess Sara”
whenever they wished to be particularly disdainful,
and those who were fond of her gave her the name among
themselves as a term of affection. No one called
her “princess” instead of “Sara,”
but her adorers were much pleased with the picturesqueness
and grandeur of the title, and Miss Minchin, hearing
of it, mentioned it more than once to visiting parents,
feeling that it rather suggested a sort of royal boarding
school.
To Becky it seemed the most appropriate
thing in the world. The acquaintance begun on
the foggy afternoon when she had jumped up terrified
from her sleep in the comfortable chair, had ripened
and grown, though it must be confessed that Miss Minchin
and Miss Amelia knew very little about it. They
were aware that Sara was “kind” to the
scullery maid, but they knew nothing of certain delightful
moments snatched perilously when, the upstairs rooms
being set in order with lightning rapidity, Sara’s
sitting room was reached, and the heavy coal box set
down with a sigh of joy. At such times stories
were told by installments, things of a satisfying
nature were either produced and eaten or hastily tucked
into pockets to be disposed of at night, when Becky
went upstairs to her attic to bed.
“But I has to eat ’em
careful, miss,” she said once; “’cos
if I leaves crumbs the rats come out to get ’em.”
“Rats!” exclaimed Sara,
in horror. “Are there rats there?”
“Lots of ’em, miss,”
Becky answered in quite a matter-of-fact manner.
“There mostly is rats an’ mice in attics.
You gets used to the noise they makes scuttling about.
I’ve got so I don’t mind ’em s’
long as they don’t run over my piller.”
“Ugh!” said Sara.
“You gets used to anythin’
after a bit,” said Becky. “You have
to, miss, if you’re born a scullery maid.
I’d rather have rats than cockroaches.”
“So would I,” said Sara;
“I suppose you might make friends with a rat
in time, but I don’t believe I should like to
make friends with a cockroach.”
Sometimes Becky did not dare to spend
more than a few minutes in the bright, warm room,
and when this was the case perhaps only a few words
could be exchanged, and a small purchase slipped into
the old-fashioned pocket Becky carried under her dress
skirt, tied round her waist with a band of tape.
The search for and discovery of satisfying things
to eat which could be packed into small compass, added
a new interest to Sara’s existence. When
she drove or walked out, she used to look into shop
windows eagerly. The first time it occurred to
her to bring home two or three little meat pies, she
felt that she had hit upon a discovery. When
she exhibited them, Becky’s eyes quite sparkled.
“Oh, miss!” she murmured.
“Them will be nice an’ fillin.’
It’s fillin’ness that’s best.
Sponge cake’s a ’evenly thing, but it
melts away like—if you understand, miss.
These’ll just stay in yer stummick.”
“Well,” hesitated Sara,
“I don’t think it would be good if they
stayed always, but I do believe they will be satisfying.”
They were satisfying—and
so were beef sandwiches, bought at a cook-shop—and
so were rolls and Bologna sausage. In time, Becky
began to lose her hungry, tired feeling, and the coal
box did not seem so unbearably heavy.
However heavy it was, and whatsoever
the temper of the cook, and the hardness of the work
heaped upon her shoulders, she had always the chance
of the afternoon to look forward to—the
chance that Miss Sara would be able to be in her sitting
room. In fact, the mere seeing of Miss Sara would
have been enough without meat pies. If there
was time only for a few words, they were always friendly,
merry words that put heart into one; and if there
was time for more, then there was an installment of
a story to be told, or some other thing one remembered
afterward and sometimes lay awake in one’s bed
in the attic to think over. Sara—who
was only doing what she unconsciously liked better
than anything else, Nature having made her for a giver—had
not the least idea what she meant to poor Becky, and
how wonderful a benefactor she seemed. If Nature
has made you for a giver, your hands are born open,
and so is your heart; and though there may be times
when your hands are empty, your heart is always full,
and you can give things out of that—warm
things, kind things, sweet things—help
and comfort and laughter—and sometimes gay,
kind laughter is the best help of all.
Becky had scarcely known what laughter
was through all her poor, little hard-driven life.
Sara made her laugh, and laughed with her; and, though
neither of them quite knew it, the laughter was as
“fillin’” as the meat pies.
A few weeks before Sara’s eleventh
birthday a letter came to her from her father, which
did not seem to be written in such boyish high spirits
as usual. He was not very well, and was evidently
overweighted by the business connected with the diamond
mines.
“You see, little Sara,”
he wrote, “your daddy is not a businessman at
all, and figures and documents bother him. He
does not really understand them, and all this seems
so enormous. Perhaps, if I was not feverish I
should not be awake, tossing about, one half of the
night and spend the other half in troublesome dreams.
If my little missus were here, I dare say she would
give me some solemn, good advice. You would,
wouldn’t you, Little Missus?”
One of his many jokes had been to
call her his “little missus” because she
had such an old-fashioned air.
He had made wonderful preparations
for her birthday. Among other things, a new
doll had been ordered in Paris, and her wardrobe was
to be, indeed, a marvel of splendid perfection.
When she had replied to the letter asking her if the
doll would be an acceptable present, Sara had been
very quaint.
“I am getting very old,”
she wrote; “you see, I shall never live to have
another doll given me. This will be my last doll.
There is something solemn about it. If I could
write poetry, I am sure a poem about `A Last Doll’
would be very nice. But I cannot write poetry.
I have tried, and it made me laugh. It did not
sound like Watts or Coleridge or Shakespeare at all.
No one could ever take Emily’s place, but I
should respect the Last Doll very much; and I am sure
the school would love it. They all like dolls,
though some of the big ones—the almost fifteen
ones— pretend they are too grown up.”
Captain Crewe had a splitting headache
when he read this letter in his bungalow in India.
The table before him was heaped with papers and letters
which were alarming him and filling him with anxious
dread, but he laughed as he had not laughed for weeks.
“Oh,” he said, “she’s
better fun every year she lives. God grant this
business may right itself and leave me free to run
home and see her. What wouldn’t I give to
have her little arms round my neck this minute!
What wouldn’t I give!”
The birthday was to be celebrated
by great festivities. The schoolroom was to
be decorated, and there was to be a party. The
boxes containing the presents were to be opened with
great ceremony, and there was to be a glittering feast
spread in Miss Minchin’s sacred room. When
the day arrived the whole house was in a whirl of
excitement. How the morning passed nobody quite
knew, because there seemed such preparations to be
made. The schoolroom was being decked with garlands
of holly; the desks had been moved away, and red covers
had been put on the forms which were arrayed round
the room against the wall.
When Sara went into her sitting room
in the morning, she found on the table a small, dumpy
package, tied up in a piece of brown paper. She
knew it was a present, and she thought she could guess
whom it came from. She opened it quite tenderly.
It was a square pincushion, made of not quite clean
red flannel, and black pins had been stuck carefully
into it to form the words, “Menny hapy returns.”
“Oh!” cried Sara, with
a warm feeling in her heart. “What pains
she has taken! I like it so, it—it
makes me feel sorrowful.”
But the next moment she was mystified.
On the under side of the pincushion was secured a
card, bearing in neat letters the name “Miss
Amelia Minchin.”
Sara turned it over and over.
“Miss Amelia!” she said to herself “How
can it be!”
And just at that very moment she heard
the door being cautiously pushed open and saw Becky
peeping round it.
There was an affectionate, happy grin
on her face, and she shuffled forward and stood nervously
pulling at her fingers.
“Do yer like it, Miss Sara?” she said.
“Do yer?”
“Like it?” cried Sara.
“You darling Becky, you made it all yourself.”
Becky gave a hysteric but joyful sniff,
and her eyes looked quite moist with delight.
“It ain’t nothin’
but flannin, an’ the flannin ain’t new;
but I wanted to give yer somethin’ an’
I made it of nights. I knew yer could pretend
it was satin with diamond pins in. I tried to
when I was makin’ it. The card, miss,”
rather doubtfully; “’t warn’t wrong
of me to pick it up out o’ the dust-bin, was
it? Miss ‘Meliar had throwed it away.
I hadn’t no card o’ my own, an’
I knowed it wouldn’t be a proper presink if I
didn’t pin a card on— so I pinned
Miss ’Meliar’s.”
Sara flew at her and hugged her.
She could not have told herself or anyone else why
there was a lump in her throat.
“Oh, Becky!” she cried
out, with a queer little laugh, “I love you,
Becky—I do, I do!”
“Oh, miss!” breathed Becky.
“Thank yer, miss, kindly; it ain’t good
enough for that. The—the flannin wasn’t
new.”
7
The Diamond Mines Again
When Sara entered the holly-hung schoolroom
in the afternoon, she did so as the head of a sort
of procession. Miss Minchin, in her grandest
silk dress, led her by the hand. A manservant
followed, carrying the box containing the Last Doll,
a housemaid carried a second box, and Becky brought
up the rear, carrying a third and wearing a clean
apron and a new cap. Sara would have much preferred
to enter in the usual way, but Miss Minchin had sent
for her, and, after an interview in her private sitting
room, had expressed her wishes.
“This is not an ordinary occasion,”
she said. “I do not desire that it should
be treated as one.”
So Sara was led grandly in and felt
shy when, on her entry, the big girls stared at her
and touched each other’s elbows, and the little
ones began to squirm joyously in their seats.
“Silence, young ladies!”
said Miss Minchin, at the murmur which arose.
“James, place the box on the table and remove
the lid. Emma, put yours upon a chair.
Becky!” suddenly and severely.
Becky had quite forgotten herself
in her excitement, and was grinning at Lottie, who
was wriggling with rapturous expectation. She
almost dropped her box, the disapproving voice so
startled her, and her frightened, bobbing curtsy of
apology was so funny that Lavinia and Jessie tittered.
“It is not your place to look
at the young ladies,” said Miss Minchin.
“You forget yourself. Put your box down.”
Becky obeyed with alarmed haste and
hastily backed toward the door.
“You may leave us,” Miss
Minchin announced to the servants with a wave of her
hand.
Becky stepped aside respectfully to
allow the superior servants to pass out first.
She could not help casting a longing glance at the
box on the table. Something made of blue satin
was peeping from between the folds of tissue paper.
“If you please, Miss Minchin,”
said Sara, suddenly, “mayn’t Becky stay?”
It was a bold thing to do. Miss
Minchin was betrayed into something like a slight
jump. Then she put her eyeglass up, and gazed
at her show pupil disturbedly.
“Becky!” she exclaimed. “My
dearest Sara!”
Sara advanced a step toward her.
“I want her because I know she
will like to see the presents,” she explained.
“She is a little girl, too, you know.”
Miss Minchin was scandalized.
She glanced from one figure to the other.
“My dear Sara,” she said,
“Becky is the scullery maid. Scullery maids—er—are
not little girls.”
It really had not occurred to her
to think of them in that light. Scullery maids
were machines who carried coal scuttles and made fires.
“But Becky is,” said Sara.
“And I know she would enjoy herself. Please
let her stay—because it is my birthday.”
Miss Minchin replied with much dignity:
“As you ask it as a birthday
favor—she may stay. Rebecca, thank
Miss Sara for her great kindness.”
Becky had been backing into the corner,
twisting the hem of her apron in delighted suspense.
She came forward, bobbing curtsies, but between Sara’s
eyes and her own there passed a gleam of friendly
understanding, while her words tumbled over each other.
“Oh, if you please, miss!
I’m that grateful, miss! I did want to
see the doll, miss, that I did. Thank you, miss.
And thank you, ma’am,”—turning
and making an alarmed bob to Miss Minchin—
“for letting me take the liberty.”
Miss Minchin waved her hand again—this
time it was in the direction of the corner near the
door.
“Go and stand there,”
she commanded. “Not too near the young
ladies.”
Becky went to her place, grinning.
She did not care where she was sent, so that she
might have the luck of being inside the room, instead
of being downstairs in the scullery, while these delights
were going on. She did not even mind when Miss
Minchin cleared her throat ominously and spoke again.
“Now, young ladies, I have a
few words to say to you,” she announced.
“She’s going to make a
speech,” whispered one of the girls. “I
wish it was over.”
Sara felt rather uncomfortable.
As this was her party, it was probable that the speech
was about her. It is not agreeable to stand
in a schoolroom and have a speech made about you.
“You are aware, young ladies,”
the speech began—for it was a speech—“that
dear Sara is eleven years old today.”
“Dear Sara!” murmured Lavinia.
“Several of you here have also
been eleven years old, but Sara’s birthdays
are rather different from other little girls’
birthdays. When she is older she will be heiress
to a large fortune, which it will be her duty to spend
in a meritorious manner.”
“The diamond mines,” giggled Jessie, in
a whisper.
Sara did not hear her; but as she
stood with her green-gray eyes fixed steadily on Miss
Minchin, she felt herself growing rather hot.
When Miss Minchin talked about money, she felt somehow
that she always hated her—and, of course,
it was disrespectful to hate grown-up people.
“When her dear papa, Captain
Crewe, brought her from India and gave her into my
care,” the speech proceeded, “he said to
me, in a jesting way, `I am afraid she will be very
rich, Miss Minchin.’ My reply was, `Her
education at my seminary, Captain Crewe, shall be
such as will adorn the largest fortune.’
Sara has become my most accomplished pupil.
Her French and her dancing are a credit to the seminary.
Her manners—which have caused you to call
her Princess Sara—are perfect. Her
amiability she exhibits by giving you this afternoon’s
party. I hope you appreciate her generosity.
I wish you to express your appreciation of it by
saying aloud all together, `Thank you, Sara!’”
The entire schoolroom rose to its
feet as it had done the morning Sara remembered so
well.
“Thank you, Sara!” it
said, and it must be confessed that Lottie jumped
up and down. Sara looked rather shy for a moment.
She made a curtsy—and it was a very nice
one.
“Thank you,” she said, “for coming
to my party.”
“Very pretty, indeed, Sara,”
approved Miss Minchin. “That is what a
real princess does when the populace applauds her.
Lavinia”—scathingly—“the
sound you just made was extremely like a snort.
If you are jealous of your fellow-pupil, I beg you
will express your feelings in some more lady-like manner.
Now I will leave you to enjoy yourselves.”
The instant she had swept out of the
room the spell her presence always had upon them was
broken. The door had scarcely closed before
every seat was empty. The little girls jumped
or tumbled out of theirs; the older ones wasted no
time in deserting theirs. There was a rush toward
the boxes. Sara had bent over one of them with
a delighted face.
“These are books, I know,” she said.
The little children broke into a rueful
murmur, and Ermengarde looked aghast.
“Does your papa send you books
for a birthday present?” she exclaimed.
“Why, he’s as bad as mine. Don’t
open them, Sara.”
“I like them,” Sara laughed,
but she turned to the biggest box. When she took
out the Last Doll it was so magnificent that the children
uttered delighted groans of joy, and actually drew
back to gaze at it in breathless rapture.
“She is almost as big as Lottie,” someone
gasped.
Lottie clapped her hands and danced about, giggling.
“She’s dressed for the
theater,” said Lavinia. “Her cloak
is lined with ermine.”
“Oh,” cried Ermengarde,
darting forward, “she has an o