A Knight of the Nets

A GREAT DELIVERANCE

While these clouds of sorrow were slowly gathering in the splendid house of Braelands, there was a full tide of grief and anxiety in the humble cottage of the Binnies.  The agony of terror which had changed Janet Binnie’s countenance, and sent Christina flying up the cliff for help, was well warranted by Andrew’s condition.  The man was in the most severe maniacal delirium of brain inflammation, and before the dawning of the next day, required the united strength of two of his mates to control him.  To leave her mother and brother in this extremity would have been a cruelty beyond the contemplation of Christina Binnie.  Its possibility never entered her mind.  All her anger and sense of wrong vanished before the pitiful sight of the strong man in the throes of his mental despair and physical agony.  She could not quite ignore her waiting lover, even in such an hour; but she was not a ready writer, so her words were few and to the point:—­

DEAR JAMIE—­Andrew is ill and like to die, and my place, dear lad, is here, until some change come.  I must stand by mother and Andrew now, and you yourself would bid me do so.  Death is in the house and by the pillow, and there is only God’s mercy to trust to.  Andrew is clean off his senses, and ill to manage, so you will know that he was not in reason when he spoke so wrong to you, and you will be sorry for him and forgive the words he said, because he did not know what he was saying; and now he knows nothing at all, not even his mother.  Do not forget to pray for us in our sorrow, dear Jamie, and I will keep ever a prayer round about you in case of danger on the sea or on land.  Your true, troth-plighted wife,

CHRISTINA BINNIE

This letter was her last selfish act for many a week.  After it had been written, she put all her own affairs out of her mind and set herself with heart and soul, by day and by night, to the duty before her.  She suffered no shadow of the bygone to darken her calm strong face or to weaken the hands and heart from which so much was now expected.  And she continually told herself not to doubt in these dark days the mercy of the Eternal, taking hope and comfort, as she went about her duties, from a few words Janet had said, even while she was weeping bitterly over her son’s sufferings—­

“But I am putting all fear Christina, under my feet, for nothing comes to pass without helping on some great end.”

Now what great end Andrew’s severe illness was to help on, Christina could not divine; but like her brave mother, she put fear under her feet, and looked confidently for “the end” which she trusted would be accomplished in God’s time and mercy.

So week after week the two women walked with love and courage by the sick man’s side, through the Valley of the Shadow of Death.  Often his life lay but within his lips, and they watched with prayer continually, lest he should slip away to them that had gone before, wanting its mighty shield in the great perilous journey of the soul.  And though there is no open vision in these days, yet His Presence is ever near to those who seek him with all the heart.  So that wonderful things were seen and experienced in that humble room, where the man lay at the point of death.

Andrew had his share of these experiences.  Whatever God said to the waiting, watching women, He kept for His suffering servant some of His richest consolations, and so made all his bed in his sickness.  Andrew was keenly sensible of these ministrations, and he grew strong in their heavenly strength; for though the vaults of God are full of wine, the soul that has drunk of His strong wine of Pain knows that it has tasted the costliest vintage of all, and asks on this earth no better.

And as our thoughts affect our surroundings, quite as much as rain or sunshine affect the atmosphere, these two women, with the sick man on their hearts and hands, were not unhappy women.  They did their very best, and trusted God for the outcome.  Thus Heaven helped them, and their neighbours helped them, and taking turns in their visitation, they found the Kirk also to be a big, calm friend in the time of their trouble.  And then one morning, before the dawn broke, when life seemed to be at its lowest point, when hope was nearly gone, and the shadow of Death fell across the sick man’s face, there was suddenly a faint, strange flutter.  Some mighty one went out of the door, as the sunshine touched the lintel, and the life began to turn back, just as the tide began to flow.

Then Janet rose up softly and opened the house door, and looking at her son and at the turning waters, she said solemnly:—­

“Thank God, Christina!  He has turned with the tide?  He is all right now.”

It was April, however, in its last days, before Andrew had strength sufficient to go down the cliff, and the first news he heard in the village, was that Mistress Braelands had lain at death’s door also.  Doubtless it explained some testimony private to his own experience, for he let the intelligence pass through his ear-chambers into his heart, without remark, but it made there a great peace—­a peace pure and loving as that which passeth understanding.

There was, however, no hope or expectation of his resuming work until the herring fishing in June, and Janet and Christina were now suffering sorely from a strange dilemma.  Never before in all their lives had they known what it was to be pinched for ready money.  It was hard for Janet to realise that there was no longer “a little bit in the Largo bank to fall back on.”  Naturally economical, and always regarding it as a sacred duty to live within the rim of their shilling, they had never known either the slow terror of gathering debt, or the acute pinch of actual necessity.  But Andrew’s long sickness, with all its attendant expenses, had used up all Janet’s savings, and the day at last dawned when they must either borrow money, or run into debt.

It was a strange and humiliating position, especially after Janet’s little motherly bragging about her Christina’s silken wedding gown, and brawly furnished floor in Glasgow.  Both mother and daughter felt it sorely; and Christina looked at her brother with some little angry amazement, for he appeared to be quite oblivious of their cruel strait.  He said little about his work, and never spoke at all about Sophy or his lost money.  In the tremendous furnace of his affliction, these elements of it appeared to have been utterly consumed.

Neither mother nor sister liked to remind him of them, nor yet to point out the poverty to which his long sickness had reduced them.  It might be six weeks before the herring fishing roused him to labour, and they had spent their last sixpence.  Janet began seriously to think of lifting the creel to her shoulders again, and crying “fresh fish” in Largo streets.  It was so many years since she had done this, that the idea was painful both to Christina and herself.  The girl would gladly have taken her mother’s place, but this Janet would not hearken to.  As yet, her daughter had never had to haggle and barter among fish wives, and house-wives; and she would not have her do it for a passing necessity.  Besides Jamie might not like it; and for many other reasons, the little downcome would press hardest upon Christina.

There was one other plan by which a little ready money could be raised—­that was, to get a small mortgage on the cottage, and when all had been said for and against this project, it seemed, after all, to be the best thing to do.

Griselda Kilgour had money put away, and Christina was very certain she would be glad to help them on such good security as a house and an acre or two of land.  Certainly Janet and Griselda had parted in bad bread at their last interview, but in such a time of trouble, Christina did not believe that her kinswoman would remember ill words that had passed, especially as they were about Sophy’s marriage—­a subject on which they had every right to feel hurt and offended.

Still a mortgage on their home was a dreadful alternative to these simple-minded women; they looked upon it as something very like a disgrace.  “A lawyer’s foot on the threshold,” said Janet, “and who or what is to keep him from putting the key of the cottage in his own pocket, and sending us into a cold and roofless world?  No!  No!  Christina.  I had better by far lift the creel to my shoulders again.  Thank God, I have the health and strength to do it!”

“And what will folks be saying of me, to let you ware yourself on the life of that work in your old age?  If you turn fish-wife again, then I be to seek service with some one who can pay me for my hands’ work.”

“Well, well, my dear lass, to-night we cannot work, but we may sleep; and many a blessing comes, and us not thinking of it.  Lie down a wee, and God will comfort you; forbye, the pillow often gives us good counsel.  Keep a still heart tonight, and tomorrow is another day.”

Janet followed her own advice, and was soon sleeping as soundly and as sweetly as a play-tired child; but Christina sat in the open doorway, thinking of the strait they were in, and wondering if it would not be the kindest and wisest thing to tell Andrew plainly of their necessity.  Sooner or later, he would find out that his mother was making his bread for him; and she thought such knowledge, coming from strangers, or through some accident, would wound him more severely than if she herself explained their hard position to him.  As for the mortgage, the very thought of it made her sick.  “It is just giving our home away, bit by bit—­that is what a mortgage is—­and whatever we are to do, and whatever I ought to do, God only knows!”

Yet in spite of the stress of this, to her, terrible question, a singular serenity possessed her.  It was as if she had heard a voice saying “Peace, be still!” She thought it was the calm of nature,—­the high tide breaking gently on the shingle with a low murmur, the soft warmth, the full moonshine, the sound of the fishermen’s voices calling faintly on the horizon,—­and still more, the sense of divine care and knowledge, and the sweet conviction that One, mighty to help and to save, was her Father and her Friend.  For a little space she walked abreast of angels.  So many things take place in the soul that are not revealed, and it is always when we are wrestling alone, that the comforting ones come.  Christina looked downward to the village sleeping at her feet,

  “Beneath its little patch of sky,
  And little lot of stars,”

and upward, to where innumerable worlds were whirling noiselessly through the limitless void, and forgot her own clamorous personality and “the something that infects the world;” and doing this, though she did not voice her anxiety, it passed from her heart into the Infinite Heart, and thus she was calmed and comforted.  Then, suddenly, the prayer of her childhood and her girlhood came to her lips, and she stood up, and clasping her hands, she cast her eyes towards heaven, and said reverently:—­

“This is the change of Thy Right Hand, O Thou Most High
    Thou art strong to strengthen.’ 
    Thou art gracious to help! 
    Thou art ready to better.’ 
    Thou art mighty to save’”

As the words passed her lips, she heard a movement, and softly and silently as a spirit, her brother Andrew, fully dressed, passed through the doorway.  His arm lightly touched Christina’s clothing, but he was unconscious of her presence.  He looked more than mortal, and was evidently seeing through his eyes, and not with them.  She was afraid to speak to him.  She did not dream of touching him, or of arresting his steps.  Without a sign or word, he went rapidly down the cliff, walking with that indifference to physical obstacles which a spirit that had cast off its incarnation might manifest.

“He is walking in his sleep, and he may get into danger or find death itself,” thought Christina, and her fear gave strength and fleetness to her footsteps as she quickly followed her brother.  He made no noise of any kind; he did not even disturb a pebble in his path; but went forward, with a motion light and rapid, and the very reverse of the slow, heavy-footed gait of a fisherman.  But she kept him in sight as he glided over the ribbed and water-lined sands, and rounded the rocky points which jutted into the sea water.  After a walk of nearly two miles, he made direct for a series of bold rocks which were penetrated by numberless caverns, and into one of these he entered.

Hitherto he had not shown a moment’s hesitation, nor did he now though the path was dangerously narrow and rocky, overhanging unfathomable abysses of dark water.  But Christina was in mortal terror, both for herself and Andrew.  She did not dare to call his name, lest, in the sudden awakening he might miss his precarious foothold, and fall to unavoidable death.  She found it almost impossible to follow him nor indeed in her ordinary frame of mind could she have done so.  But the experience, so strange and thrilling, had lifted her in a measure above the control of the physical and she was conscious of an exaltation of spirit which defied difficulties that would ordinarily have terrified her.  Still she was so much delayed by the precautions evidently necessary for her life, that she lost sight of her brother, and her heart stood still with fright.

Prayers parted her white lips continually, as she slowly climbed the hollow crags that seemed to close together and forbid her further progress.  But she would not turn back, for she could not believe that Andrew had perished.  She would have heard the fall of his body or its splash in the water beneath and so she continued to climb and clamber though every step appeared to make further exploration more and more impossible.

With a startling unexpectedness, she found herself in a circular chamber, open to the sky and on one of the large boulders lying around, Andrew sat.  He was still in the depths of a somnambulistic sleep; but he had his lost box of gold and bank-notes before him, and he was counting the money.  She held her breath.  She stood still as a stone.  She was afraid to think.  But she divined at once the whole secret.  Motionless she watched him, as he unrolled and rerolled the notes, as he counted and recounted the gold, and then carefully locked the box, and hid the key under the edge of the stone on which he sat.

What would he now do with the box?  She watched his movements with a breathless interest.  He sat still for a few moments, clasping his treasure firmly in his large, brown hands; then he rose, and put it in an aperture above his head, filling the space in front of it with a stone that exactly fitted.  Without hurry, and without hesitation, the whole transaction was accomplished; and then, with an equal composure and confidence, he retraced his steps through the cavern and over the rocks and sands to his own sleeping room.

Christina followed as rapidly as she was able; but her exaltation had died away, and left her weak and ready to weep; so that when she reached the open beach, Andrew was so far in advance as to be almost out of sight.  She could not hope to overtake him, and she sat down for a few minutes to try and realise the great relief that had come to them—­to wonder—­to clasp her hands in adoration, to weep tears of joy.  When she reached her home at last, it was quite light.  She looked into her brother’s room, and saw that he was lying motionless in the deepest sleep; but Janet was half-awake, and she asked sleepily:—­

“Whatever are you about so early for, Christina?  Isn’t the day long enough for the sorrow and the care of it?”

“Oh, Mother!  Mother!  The day isn’t long enough for the joy and the blessing of it.”

“What do you mean, my lass?  What is it in your face?  What have you seen?  Who has spoken a word to you?” and Janet rose up quickly, and put her hands on Christina’s shoulders; for the girl was swaying and trembling, and ready to break out into a passion of sobbing.

“I have seen, Mother, the salvation of the Lord!  I have found Andrew’s lost money!  I have proved that poor Jamie is innocent!  We aren’t poor any longer.  There is no need to borrow, or mortgage, or to run in debt.  Oh, Mother!  Mother!  The blessing you bespoke last night, the blessing we were not thinking of, has come to us.”

“The Lord be thanked!  I knew He would save us, in His own time, and His time is never too late.”

Then Christina sat down by her mother’s side, and in low, intense tones, told her all she had seen.  Janet listened with kindling face and shining eyes.

“The mercy of God is on His beloved, and His regard is unto His elect,” she cried, “and I am glad this day, that I never doubted Him, and never prayed to Him with a grudge at the bottom of my heart.”  Then she began to dress herself with her old joyfulness, humming a line of this and that psalm or paraphrase, and stopping in the middle to ask Christina another question; until the kettle began to simmer to her happy mood, and she suddenly sung out joyfully four lines, never very far from her lips:—­

“My heart is dashed with cares and fears,
   My song comes fluttering and is gone;
 Oh!  High above this home of tears. 
   Eternal Joy sing on!”

How would it feel for the hyssop on the wall to turn cedar, I wonder?  Just about as Janet and Christina felt that morning, eating their simple breakfast with glad hearts.  Poor as the viands were, they had the flavour of joy and thankfulness, and of a wondrous salvation.  “It is the Lord’s doing!” This was the key to which the two women set all their hopes and rejoicing, and yet even into its noble melody there stole at last a little of the fret of earth.  For suddenly Janet had a fear—­not of God, but of man—­and she said anxiously to her daughter:—­

“You should have brought the box home with you, Christina.  O my lass, if some other body should have seen what you have seen, then we will be fairly ruined twice over.”

“No, no.  Mother!  I would not have touched the box for all there is in it.  Andrew must go for it himself.  He might never believe it was where I saw it, if he did not go for it.  You know well he suspicioned both Jamie and me; and indeed, Mother dear, you yourself thought worse of Jamie than you should have done.”

“Let that be now, Christina.  God has righted all.  We will have no casts up.  If I thought of any one wrongly, I am sorry for it, and I could not say more than that even to my Maker.  If ill news was waiting for Andrew, it would have shaken him off his pillow ere this.”

“Let him sleep.  His soul took his body a weary walk this morning.  He is sore needing sleep, no doubt.”

“He will have to wake up now, and go about his business.  It is high time.”

“You should mind, Mother, what a tempest he has come through; all the waves and billows of sorrow have gone over him.”

“He is a good man, and ought to be the better of the tempest.  His ship may have been sorely beaten and tossed, but his anchor was fast all through the storm.  It is time he lifted anchor now, and faced the brunt and the buffet again.  An idle man, if he is not a sick man, is on a lee shore, let him put out to sea, why, lassie!  A storm is better than a shipwreck.”

“To be sure, Mother.  Here the dear lad comes!” and with that Andrew sauntered slowly into the kitchen.  There was no light on his face, no hope or purpose in his movements.  He sat down at the table, and drew his cup of tea towards him with an air of indifference, almost of despair.  It wounded Janet.  She put her hand on his hand, and compelled him to look into her face.  As he did so, his eyes opened wide; speculation, wonder, something like hope came into them.  The very silence of the two women—­a silence full of meaning—­arrested his soul.  He looked from one to the other, and saw the same inscrutable joy answering his gaze.

“What is it, Mother?” he asked.  “I can see you have something to tell me.”

“I have that, Andrew!  O my dear lad, your money is found!  I do not think a penny-bit of it is missing.  Don’t mind me!  I am greeting for the very joy of it—­but O Andrew, you be to praise God!  It is his doing, and marvellous in our eyes.  Ask Christina.  She can tell you better than I can.”

But Andrew could not speak.  He touched his sister’s hand, and dumbly looked into her happy face.  He was white as death, but he sat bending forward to her, with one hand outstretched, as if to clasp and grasp the thing she had to tell him.  So Christina told him the whole story, and after he had heard it, he pushed his plate and cup away, and rose up, and went into his room and shut the door.  And Janet said gratefully:—­

“It is all right, Christina.  He’ll get nothing but good advice in God’s council chamber.  We’ll not need to worry ourselves again anent either the lad or the money.  The one has come to his senses, and the other will come to its use.  And we will cast nothing up to him; the best boat loses her rudder once in a while.”

It was not long before Andrew joined his mother and sister, and the man was a changed man.  There was grave purpose in his calm face, and a joy, too deep for words, in the glint of his eyes and in the graciousness of his manner.

“Come, Christina!” he said.  “I want you you to go with me; we will bring the siller home together.  But I forget—­it is maybe too far for you to walk again to-day?”

“I would walk ten times as far to pleasure you, Andrew.  Do you know the place I told you of?”

“Aye, I know it well.  I hid the first few shillings there that I ever saved.”

As they walked together over the sands Christina said:  “I wonder, Andrew, when and how you carried the box there?  Can you guess at all the way this trouble came about?”

“I can, but I’m ashamed to tell you, Christina.  You see, after I had shown you the money, I took a fear anent it.  I thought maybe you might tell Jamie Logan, and the possibility of this fretted on my mind until it became a sure thing with me.  So, being troubled in my heart, I doubtless got up in my sleep and put the box in my oldest and safest hiding-place.”

“But why then did you not remember that you had done so?”

“You see, dearie, I hid it in my sleep, so then it was only in my sleep I knew where I had put it.  There is two of us, I am thinking, lassie, and the one man does not always tell the other man all he knows.  I ought to have trusted you, Christina; but I doubted you, and, as mother says, doubt aye fathers sin or sorrow of some kind or other.”

“You might have safely trusted me, Andrew.”

“I know now I might.  But he is lifeless that is faultless; and the wrong I have done I must put right.  I am thinking of Jamie Logan?”

“Poor Jamie!  You know now that he never wronged you?”

“I know, and I will let him know as soon as possible.  When did you hear from him?  And where is he at all?”

“I don’t know just where he is.  He sailed away yon time; and when he got to New York, he left the ship.”

“What for did he do that?”

“O Andrew, I cannot tell.  He was angry with me for not coming to Glasgow as I promised him I would.”

“You promised him that?”

“Aye, the night you were taken so bad.  But how could I leave you in Dead Man’s Dale and mother here lone to help you through it?  So I wrote and told him I be to see you through your trouble, and he went away from Scotland and said he would never come back again till we found out how sorely all of us had wronged him.”

“Don’t cry, Christina!  I will seek Jamie over the wide world till I find him.  I wonder at myself I am shamed of myself.  However, will you forgive me for all the sorrow I have brought on you?”

“You were not altogether to blame, Andrew.  You were ill to death at the time.  Your brain was on fire, poor laddie, and it would be a sin to hold you countable for any word you said or did not say.  But if you will seek after Jamie either by letter or your own travel, and say as much to him as you have said to me I may be happy yet, for all that has come and gone.”

“What else can I do but seek the lad I have wronged so cruelly?  What else can I do for the sister that never deserved ill word or deed from me?  No, I cannot rest until I have made the wrong to both of you as far right as sorrow and siller can do.”

When they reached the cavern, Andrew would not let Christina enter it with him.  He said he knew perfectly well the spot to which he must go, and he would not have her tread again the dangerous road.  So Christina sat down on the rocks to wait for him, and the water tinkled beneath her feet, and the sunshine dimpled the water, and the fresh salt wind blew strength and happiness into her heart and hopes.  In a short time, the last moment of her anxiety was over, and Andrew came back to her, with the box and its precious contents in his hands.  “It is all here!” he said, and his voice had its old tones, for his heart was ringing to the music of its happiness, knowing that the door of fortune was now open to him, and that he could walk up to success, as to a friend, on his own hearthstone.

That afternoon he put the money in Largo bank, and made arrangements for his mother’s and sister’s comfort for some weeks.  “For there is nothing I can do for my own side, until I have found Jamie Logan, and put Christina’s and his affairs right,” he said.  And Janet was of the same opinion.

“You cannot bless yourself, laddie, until you bless others,” she said, “and the sooner you go about the business, the better for everybody.”

So that night Andrew started for Glasgow, and when he reached that city, he was fortunate enough to find the very ship in which Jamie had sailed away, lying at her dock.  The first mate recalled the young man readily.

“The more by token that he had my own name,” he said to Andrew.  “We are both of us Fife Logans, and I took a liking to the lad, and he told me his trouble.”

“About some lost money?” asked Andrew.

“Nay, he said nothing about money.  It was some love trouble, I take it.  He thought he could better forget the girl if he ran away from his country and his work.  He has found out his mistake by this time, no doubt.”

“You knew he was going to leave ‘The Line’ then?”

“Yes, we let him go; and I heard say that he had shipped on an American line, sailing to Cuba, or New Orleans, or somewhere near the equator.”

“Well, I shall try and find him.”

“I wouldn’t, if I was you.  He is sure to come back to his home again.  He showed me a lock of the lassie’s hair.  Man! a single strand of it would pull him back to Scotland sooner or later.”

“But I have wronged him sorely.  I did not mean to wrong him, but that does not alter the case.”

“Not a bit.  Love sickness is one thing; a wrong against a man’s good name or good fortune, is a different matter.  I would find him and right him.”

“That is what I want to do.”

And so when the Circassia sailed out of Greenock for New York, Andrew Binnie sailed in her.  “It is not a very convenient journey,” he said rather sadly, as he left Scotland behind him, “but wrong has been done, and wrong has no warrant, and I’ll never have a good day till I put the wrong right; so the sooner the better, for, as Mother says, ’that which a fool does at the end a wise man does at the beginning.’”